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Whenever I daydream I noticed that it’s always me being sexually dominant over another person. When I’m reality I’m very much sub. But I’m always imagining my mental health therapist, or friends, or professors catching me in sexual acts?
I seriously am not attracted to my therapist or any of my professors or friends so I don’t understand I had delusions younger about being raped and impregnated. I also had delusions of being watched in the shower from cameras in the walls, so I felt like I had to put on a shower. Also, I deal with pure-O thoughts about incest, and I’ve had some compulsive and obsessive thoughts of my family and friends raping and molesting me. Do you think that would have something to do with my uncontrollable issue with imagining myself as an exhibitionist, and being sexually dominant, when I’m anything but? |
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Being caught in a sexual act isn’t what I would call a sexually powerful person....in this fantasy.
The exhibitionist, the idea of performing, being caught, public display is a common fetish but even someone who favors submissiveness could also be an exhibitionist. Another post you described a sexual experience, but I personally didn’t find it “subby.” Maybe you need to explore your physical sexual experiences a bit more, idk. Afa the pure O, I’m sorry I’m not familiar with ocd. __________________ "Doubt is like dye. Once it spreads into the fabric of excuses you've woven, you'll never get rid of the stain." Jodi Picoult |
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This sounds like me too, and guess what? I'm a virgin. 25 and a virgin.
I lost some of my drive when I got put on Risperdal and stopped imagining sex all the time. I think that the reason I'm still a virgin though is because I'm ashamed of how much I thought about sex when I was going through puberty. I had fantasies about being raped also and now realize that it is really screwed up. I thought about sex with my doctor when he asked me if I wanted a boyfriend innocently and know that I really screwed up my relationship with him. I also always think that all these guys have crushes on me instantly for some reason now that I think of it. I think that I can get any guy or something even though I've never even had a relationship. |
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There is something to be said in fantasy. I haven't had actual sex in a long time, but have had a lot of online sex. And I am ALWAYS the one in control in those situations, and totally on my terms.
Your fetishes, are yours, and you should feel to explore them. If underneath it all you feel like you can be dominant, give it a try. No harm in exploring what you desire. __________________ Tales of Love, Motivation, and An Interesting Journey - Please Subscribe to my Website on WordPress: Inspired Odyssey's Path to Wellness and Love |
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People just don’t talk about sex. If people invested half of the time, energy, and money that they devote to eating to sex? Imagine. But we’re sex-shamed throughout our (oh, so brief) lives. God forbid that a woman enjoy sex. Ah, slut-shaming crosses the female/male/what-have-you lines. Man, oh, man. __________________ amicus_curiae Contrarian, esq. Hypergraphia Someone must be right; it may as well be me. I used to be smart but now I’m just stupid. —Donnie Smith— Last edited by CANDC; Feb 09, 2018 at 11:55 PM.. Reason: Guidelines |
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