[TransLexy]

Disclaimer: I used to attach TS to my name on no-strings-attached sex ads way back then and never got offended when the banned t**nny word was used on me. So no I don't have dysphoria nor do I over-label myself and I know myself inside and out. Which is why I have actual questions about myself.

I would like to know, if possible, how and why I acted the way I did sexually with guys. And because of the content I want to play it safe and disclose that I don't condone force, abuse, or any illegal acts. I would just really love to know if someone could help me understand things better than I do now. That's all I wish for in life right now.

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With that said, I am a fully transitioned transsexual woman. I developed sexually when I was really young and reacted confidently like a female. I also had an estrogen level imbalance and wasn't embarrassed about growing breasts. I knew I wanted to be a girl and told my mom, dad, and step dad. When it came to acting out sexually, I had no issues being feminine and did it like a sexually mature female. Both my femininity and feminine intuition increased and I started to seduce one of my step-relatives while allowing another one to be touchy-feely. None of it was forced on me and what ever happened felt like I was directing for the most part. And I was starting puberty at this point.

So...my question is how did I act that way successfully like it was second nature when I wasn't fully aware of what I was doing? Moreover, I never "came out" at school. Ever. So when a few certain boys in what ever early grade noticed me "that way," I'm fairly sure that certain men in my extended family tree definitely noticed the same as they did. And since I was pretty sexual really early on, did my step-relatives also notice that side of me and, like, "knew" what to do after I instigated things like I did with 2 (older) boys after I finished early primary school? Its always been that way too with every guy I slept with when I started transitioning too. How was I able to do experienced things that early on out of instinct?

I think I kinda know the answer, but I feel like I'm missing something..

Yes.....I go through a little phase where I analyze my entire life and this is one thing that has always stood out. And because of the suddenly forbidden topics, I tried to be as careful as I could. Please someone tell me or help me figure it out. Either here or in messages. .

[Marylin]

Could be you spent past lives as a female so that you instinctively know.Do you believe in reincarnation.I do.I always think that I would be reluctant to come back into a male body.

[Travelinglady]

Hi, TransLexy, and welcome to Psych Central! Trying posting in the LGBTQ thread and I think you might get more responses. Here's the link: https://psychcentralforums.com/lgbtq-support/