Outted

This woman flirted
With me out in
The open at work in the office,
Even though she was married.
I did not flirt back,
As I was in
A serious relationship.
It was horribly uncomfortable
And I was not OK with it.
In a way
She outted me.
When I decided
To leave the company
She doubted my
Ability in front of everyone.
Pressing me to
Not quit entirely
Incase my move
To the new job
Did not work out
And I would have
Them to fall back on.
I really felt
Like she messed me around.
I don't think she
Realised how smart and switched
On I actually am.
She was just looking
For a fun fling.
I only took
The job because there
Was nothing else available
For young women in my area.
That many people
Told me that it
Was better than
My previous position
But it still did
Not do me justice.
I only texted her a couple of times
And nothing was
Ever going to come of it.
What is it with
Women who think
That it's not classed
As cheating if
It's with another woman?
That it will pass
As just a bicurious phase
And all will be forgiven?
She was never
Going to leave her husband for me.
I was never under that illusion.
I promise not to talk about it.
You have my word.
I spoke to a woman online
When I was 18. She was 21.
I suspected I was interested
In woman for years before.
That was the first
Time I acted on it.
We had nothing in common really.
Both just needing
A friend to talk to and experimenting and
Finding out what
We wanted from our sex lives.
She would have met me
In a hotel
If my then old flame
Was not so possessive.
She saw right
Past my facade
I'm no actress.
I think about
The stereophonics singing
The handbags and glad rags.
If I smile nobody will see
How much I'm hurting.

I slept with guys after I
Ieft my old flame.
I think I just
Wanted a good experience
With a man to
Over ride the memories of him.
Get him out my hair so to speak.
I was honest with them
And said I wasn't looking
For commitment but
I'm only into vanilla.

How did she oust you if you didn't get involved with her?

I said as a teen that
Some people say they
Are bi-sexual because
It is the bargaining
Phase of being gay.
They say they are bi, when
They are really gay
So they can give
Their family hope
That they may
End up in a straight relationship.
I did not mean that
Bi-sexuality did not exist.
I was just being a teen.
Maybe I thought
I was being funny
And not being a prat.
The running joke around
Here is that being bisexual
Is just greedy.
Pick a side and stay there.
I must stipulate, it is a joke.
And to answer the question
Above, I was outted
Because she flirted
Openly with me.
She would complement my smile
And repeat that I
Have her number.
It was not under the radar
So everyone found out
And I don't live in a city
So news travels fast
And I was rumbled.
Even though quitting
May have shown
I was vexed at her,
Rumours are hard to quash
Once they circulate.
I wasn't OK with it at the time,
But I dont wan't
Them to feel guilty. I am OK now.
I think they would actually
Like to know if I'm doing all right.

I did not say that
They prefer b*** lesbians,
Your no Marilyn Munroe,
Because I was jealous
Of the attention you got.
It was because you
Made out that
I fell off every
Branch of the ugly tree.
Not one part of me
Was spared the treatment.
Regardless, I know you were
Young and competitive.
Hopefully you forgive me
For mentioning you.

You don't look like Marilyn munroe
However you are dead ringer for Julia Stiles.