I don’t really see an issue

But it is getting to be frustrating. I mean my sex drive. It’s been insane. I want to hump everything. Like pillows and shirts. but I literally just spent 10 minutes humping the bathroom sink because it was at perfect waist level.

Also I’m really into diapers. Like wearing them and using them. When I flood one it just feels so relaxing and I’m in a good mood all day. I get this like thrill when I’m going through my collection. I also use pacifiers and drink out of bottles although those are more of an oral sensory thing related to my autism. I do not consider those sexual but more of coping skills to help with my negative thinking at night.

I mean I can accept that I’m into these things. My old therapist knew and she was cool with it.

But what I’m having issues with is the constant urge to stop every time I need to use the bathroom to hump the sink. This stuff is driving me crazy.

How can I distract myself from my high sex drive? I seem to be thinking about all this stuff every 15 minutes.

So Sorry that you're struggling yourself. Are you currently seeing a therapist that may be able to help you? Try to focus on your hobbies and on something relaxing to distract yourself from your sex drive, such as watching tv or reading books. As for your other things trying to discuss them with someone who knows how to handle thig kind of thing may be Hopefully better at least to better. Sorry if my post wasn't helpful. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Mountaindewed, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!

I'm going to presume what you're experiencing isn't related to medication you're on. If so perhaps what you're experiencing is something to talk over with your prescriber(s)? I'm not sure there really is a good "distraction" for wanting to hump everything. Men, I believe, tend to have the kind of overwhelming sex drive you describe. I don't think most people (women in particular?) realize just how overwhelming most men's sex drive is; plus I think most men would prefer not to admit it either really. (Like everything else there are exceptions. But, in general, I believe this to be the case.) And I think it's one reason young men in particular tend to be into sports. The physical exertion of sports & / or physical fitness training helps to drain away at least a bit of that overwhelming sex drive (along with a good helping of masturbation and real-life sex when one can get it.) It's also why so many men are hooked on internet porn nowadays I presume. So perhaps seriously upping your physical exercise regimen may be at least one way of burning off some of that desire to hump everything in sight? It's the only non-sexual remedy I know of.

Man I did not realize the sink thing would be so painful hours later. And there’s nothing I can even do about it “hey mom I think I hurt myself humping the bathroom sink for 10 minutes.” Um no. I’ll just take Tylenol and hope I didn’t do any type of damage.

I know that feeling especially with wearing vdiapers wanting to hump everything all the time

I got a couple packages of Goodnites. They now have a boys XL which fits pretty good. I’ve worn them before and they are super comfortable and helpful and no one notices them. They are a sensory thing. I’m hoping to switch over to them permanently. As for my other stuff, I’m trying to use it before my move. I got a few things that don’t need to be replaced already packed. So far my mom is still like “whatever” she might even know and doesn’t even care. I don’t know if I want to tell my new therapist. Not through video session though and I’ll probably just tell her about the sensory stuff.

I feel lost on what to do about this it's so emotionally draining unfortunately

so you're pillowsexual? i dont think its that weird. there's people attracted to bubbles afterall

I am demisexual but I am mainly turned on only by things. But not pillows. They are just convenient things to use.

I think I read in another forum that you are taking testosterone? That will definitely increase sex drive. Maybe talk to the doctor who's prescribing it. If it's overwhelming, you may be on too high a dose.

My testosterone is at a normal dose for a guy my age. I’m just kinda accepting things now. I semi told my mom I was into some private things that my T knew about but they were in my dresser and I’d prefer her not to go in there. And she was like “yeah, sure. I never go into your dressers anyways.” My new floors are hardwood so there’s really no reason for her to be in my room anyways since she won’t need to vacuum. I have a small walk in closet now and I was able to hang a lot of my clothes up and then keep all my personal stuff hidden in the last 2 drawers where you really need to bend down to get to. I did order a few more things before we moved. One thing I ordered with an Amazon gift card. 3 other things I put on a credit card that my mom never seems to pay attention to since it’s never a huge amount. I also joined a site where I can be more open with the stuff I am into. The people on there are nice. The only issue is that the door to my room doesn’t always close very well and since the house is one story instead of 3, I’m just gonna have to figure out how to use stuff.

I told my therapist about the bottles and she was accepting and said I could bring one into a session if I wanted to. She’s very open minded just like the last one. I told her I had some other stuff I wanted to discuss but when we meet in person. I told her after a difficult talk that I was turned on by things instead of people and she said “yeah as long as it’s not hurting anyone it’s fine.” She wants me to discuss the heavier stuff with her when I see her next week.

As for moving a bunch of stuff from one place to another, it was no issue. I packed and unpacked my own boxes. There was one brief moment a week before we moved where my mom wanted to pack something in one of my boxes but I told her I’d do it.

So yeah so far no issues with secrecy or people not accepting.

I'm glad to hear these things seem to be going well for you. Hope you enjoy the new website you've joined. At least to my mind, being able to communicate openly with like-minded people even if only over the internet, is so beneficial. Thanks for sharing your progress.

I was put on Valium about a month ago. Since then my sex drive has gone way down and my interests gross me out a bit now. I actually just threw away quite a bit of stuff because it was taking up too much room in my dresser and I needed the space. I still have a lot of stuff but no desire to wear them anymore. Before the hormones I was scared this would happen. When I started the medications I was accepting of my interests and now I’m once again glad this stuff is gone.

I’m still a bit into Goodnites for some reason. Maybe legit just sensory wise. The new XLs fit like regular underwear for me.

But I mentioned the same stuff again to the same therapist and this time she freaked out about it. She didn’t remember the first time at all. One of many reasons I ended things with her.