I am going through the same thing with my boyfriend right now and I, too, cannot understand it. I feel so emotionally hurt and betrayed, and everyday I feel like a little part of me dies. I haven't worn makeup or gone to the gym in two weeks. Which really doesn't make a difference to him because we don't have sex anyway. Last night he said he couldn't sleep so he went downstairs to "Watch tv" and ended up sleeping on the couch. This morning when I got up for work I found a piece of paper that he had ejaculated into while I was asleep in the bedroom next to the office. It hurt soo much to know that he didn't want to come to me for sex, like he felt it would be better by himself, isolated in his own little world. I feel like I am not even loved. He is not affectionate at all, so I feel like I need to have sex in order to feel love, which is another thing he doesn't give me. I feel so angry and betrayed that I think about cheating on him.......
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