[mum2four]

I was just woken up by a bad dream or at least it felt really bad to me.......in the dream I was fighting verbally with a person in my class(I signed up for a wood work class next year) it made me cry and get really angry. The person showing me to my class was talking about how I need to calm down that I would not be ok in the class with THIS teacher (I've heard stories that he picks on women his class more than men).

I want to do this woodwork class so bad and want to chalange to my self with a difficult personailty as well just not sure if its a good combitaion to attemp at the same time. If I can get over my issues with being around people who might trigger my anxiety or OCD then I would be 1 step closer to being job ready. To me getting a job still feel like a brick wall standing in my way making me feel like I'm GOING to run and indanger my self. At least with this class and teacher I can drop the subject if I wanted to or I can just not turn up as often and it wont matter cause its not important class.

but it scares the S*** out of me the idea of putting my self in a postion that I may not cope with.....what if I've bitten off more than I can chew.....I can barly handle the word NO still with out panicing.....I have to be positive or I'm fail before I've even tried....I really want to do woodwork.