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Before anyone asks, this was a dream lol! I would never actually do this in real life. And I put the trigger icon because it has to do with rape, not in detail just that it's mentioned a few times.
Okay so in the dream I was dating one of my friends, whom I like, and he kept pushing me to get this one guy sent to jail for rape. I don't remember who it was, though I have the feeling it's (ironically) the guy who r*ped me irl. All I know is that I knew, without a doubt, that he deserved to be in jail. (On a side note: my r*pist was not arrested, even after I told the police everything, nor after any of the other 4 teenage girls he r*ped came forward about it. Could this be relevant to the dream??) So my "boyfriend" was going to have me hang out with him (possibly sleep with him or get him thinking I would, I don't remember), and then Zack (my "bf") would catch him at it. I was very hesitant about this, to the point where I was having panic attacks and not wanting to do it. Zack insisted, and I finally agreed, not because I wanted to but because I wanted to please Zack. We started with the plan but then we had to stop halfway through because (for some strange reason) we were right by Zack's house and screaming "rape" would freak them out. Somehow the cops found out about our plan and an entire fleet of police boats were chasing us along the coast (us on land, them in the water beside us). I was trying to convince Zack to run, do something to evade arrest, but he was absolutely certain that he couldn't be caught. I'm pretty sure that's when I woke up... Very very strange dream and I don't know what it means, other than two possibilities: one, I'm so afraid of being abandoned that I'll do anything to avoid it (which is a key trait of BPD, which I have); two, I'm afraid that, should I date this guy, he'll start using me and treat me like crap (which has happened before). I have no reason to fear Zack; could this be a subconscious attempt to sabotage this before it has a chance to start??
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#2
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This dream might also reflect your frustration about the guy who raped you not being arrested, and maybe a part of you would like to do something about it.
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