[Miss Laura]

I am expereincing very random dreams and I unsure how to take them.

My depression is getting worse so I am guessing it's just that but here it goes;

Dream (1) I am tricked into going somewhere (unsure where though) with my friends. Several of them are there but I don't know who is there I just know they are my friends. Anyways, they take me to a building and in there is everyone family/friends/work/psych/gp and counsellor. I panic as I am thinking why are you all there. They were all sharing my personal info on me to everyone else in the room. Then I wake up as I am scared

Dream (2) I am being sectioned and I am shouting and swearing and in a total wreck as I am "not ill" and I am "fine". Everyone there all witness it and when I am in the hospital they come to visit me and I refuse to see them as I am so embarrassed and ashamed. I am made to feel bad by the psych and the staff there and I become more depressed and ill as I am feeling the guilt. I make 1 friend in the hospital and she is a nurse. She is kind to me and makes me feel better sometimes. She tells me I am doing good and encourages me to speak. But I will only speak to her and that frustrates her and the psych too. Although she is frustrated she is still kind to me. She takes me out into the grounds of the hospital and we have a "talk" about why I can't talk to people. She says it's ok to be scared and that people are only there to listen to me and not make judgesments. But I think they are and can't shift the thoughts in my head. I start SI and she makes me see its not worth it. She encourages me to express through paint (btw I am no artist, stick people yes) and that is ok. But I still stay in hospital for ages (unsure how long) I become more manic and have to be given more meds than I am originally on and I can't hand it and try to SI again. This time I manage to succeed (unsure how though) then I wake up!!!

Is this just a normal kinda thing for depression???

[Aunt Donna]

Depression is rough and it does play havoc on your sleep. I know I have weird dreams where someone is telling all the personal details of my life. It seems that I have weird dreams about anything that has ever bothered me. I wake up in a panic. Listening to soothing music at night does help me though.