[Amoslass]

Ok, so I won't go into any specifics of my dreams, I don't want anyone else having nightmares!

I have been keeping a dream journal off and on since I was about 7, and I can say truthfully that 99% of my dreams are horrific. I am talking blood-curdling, waking up crying, having me shaking for weeks horrific.
In my dreams I've been raped, I've been a 6 year old boy sodomised by a taxi driver, I've killed and butched millions of people, I've BEEN killed and butchered by millions of people, I've been tortured, I've kept pieces of dead girls under my pillow, I've eaten rotting corpses.....it goes on and on and on....the very first dream I ever wrote down as a child was full of blood.

I don't know where it comes from. I had a fairly ordinary childhood. Sure, my imagination is second to none and I mostly played by myself as a kid, but I was never abused, I never watched horror movies if I could help it...

I just want the nighmares to stop. They are so draining, I wake up every day tired and shaken. It feels real. It feels like all those things really did happen to me.