[odoyle]

Over the last several weeks I have been suffering from nightmares.

I don't generally remember my dreams. If they are vivid enough, I might remember a few general details but nothing too specific. Often I just wake up with residual emotions; sadness, depression, etc.

I believe my nightmares may be caused by 2 main factors. The first is that I recently found out my wife had been involved in an inappropriate online relationship with another guy. She had broken it off a few weeks before I found out, but I was still very devestated that it had gone as far as it did. We have both been working very hard at rebuilding our relationship, and our trust, but it's going to take time.

I have also had to reduce my dosage of Clonazepam that I take for moderate GAD. Due to our finances I won't be able to see someone until next week to get a refill. Had I stuck to my prescribed dose, I would have ran out a few weeks ago, so at first I was cutting pills, and now I am even skipping days. I am suffering withdrawal symptoms, so that may be playing some part in it as well.

However, this is where it gets weird.

Two or three times over the last week, I have woken up in the middle of the night laughing. I mean once it was a laugh, once it was a surpressed giggle, and last night it was laughing out loud at something that I thought was terribly funny at the time, and now I can't even remember what it was.

My wife and I have had a very trying week, some heavy ups and downs, but overall things are looking better than ever. We really do love each other and I believe that things will work out. But I hate waking her up at 4:30 in the morning with the giggles, even if she says it's fine and is happy that I'm not having nightmares anymore.

I've had nightmares on and off my entire life. I've never had the giggles before. I suppose there are worse things, but when we are trying to reconnect and I am distrubing her sleep when she wakes up at 5:15am for work... I guess I'm worried that I'm just going to make her angry with me, and sabotage what we are trying to fix.

[Perna]

You might find this article interesting:

http://abcnews.go.com/Technology/sle...6#.TsQcapOPWAk

It could be just the flip side of your nightmares?

[odoyle]

Originally Posted by Perna

You might find this article interesting:

http://abcnews.go.com/Technology/sle...6#.TsQcapOPWAk

It could be just the flip side of your nightmares?

Thank you very much for that link, Perna. It's a very interesting read.

It could partially explain why I can so easily swing from feeling as though things are going to be okay, we're going to make it, to feeling depressed and scared that it's only a matter of time before it happens again.

I'm definitely used to some level of cycling as a BP II, but I've been like a yo-yo lately, literally unable to predict how I'm going to feel from one day to the next. I never really considered that my inability to sleep may be contributing.

Thanks again.