[Mylifeisdepressing]

JustWannaDisappear's thread about being asleep but awake at the same time made me want to ask a similar question. I have this problem too, but it happens kind of differently. This has happened to me a couple of time over the last month, and it's really weird. Sometimes in the evening (this just usually happens to be around 5 or 6 o'clock) I get really really depressed, and I don't know what to do. I want to die. Idont want to have to deal with anything, so I take a "nap". The weird thing is, when this happens, I never completely go to sleep. It's like I'm in a daze. I'm aware that I'm not completely asleep, and this continues for about 20 minutes, then I "wake up". Sometimes people wake me up. My dad came in the other day while I was "asleep", I told him I wasn't alseep, he said yes I was but I know I never fell asleep. It's the worst feeling in the world for somebody to wake me up from this, I feel so shaken up and want them to go away, and I feel so miserable and much worse than before I "fell asleep." One time my friend woke me up and I was still kind of half alseep and I started crying. When my dad woke me up, I kind of forced myself to get up. It's like I'm not fully awake yet. And the time I woke up on my own, I had something like a mini panic attack or something. It was scary, I started shaking and hyperventilating and my heart was beating really fast, this only lasted for like 20 seconds but it was no fun. And what else is weird, when I wake up from these little episodes, I could swear I've been like that for hours. And I hardly believe it's only been 20 minutes. It's the worst feeling in the world... And then I kind of forget what happened. The first time it happened, I completely forgot about it until that night. This is so strange, can anyone tell me what is wrong???

[Perna]

Are you on any medicines or have you changed your day any, that it starts about the same time? I know I have meds I'm supposed to take at certain times and if I change the time or miss them different things can happen? What are you doing right before? Sometimes I'll catch myself in odd states if I have been reading and something I've read has sparked a thought I am not aware of. I would discuss it with your therapist? That and maybe get a good physical from your doctor, have hormone and other things checked to make sure there isn't some medical problem.