[krieger]

The dreams i have been having have been persisting for almost a year now. They are usually relatively the same, but only with a change of scenery of place. In these dreams I am most often alone except on occasion I am followed by this blond girl that I cannot recognize. What goes on is these dreams is I am constantly fighting tooth and nail to defend myself and for some reason her, and only do i have brief breaks before the next extremely violent encounter. (when i say extremely violent I mean very detailed gore people being torn to shreds, or i am tearing these "demons" to pieces with whatever weapon be it gun, knife, or even a piece of re-bar, anything i can get my hands on) One of the dreams I remember the clearest started out in some sort of shanty town next to a dock, I was with that girl that I mentioned earlier we were staying in some sort of shack (this girl most of the time keeps a short distance from me, but at times talks to me nothing more than idle conversation though) after a short while I picked up my weapons at the time in this case a very battered looking SR-25, and a small 9mm handgun which I placed in my waste. It skips a little bit to the docks near the town where we are surrounded by these gray, ghoul humanoid looking monstrosities. We are running out of space to retreat to and I am on my last few magazines of ammunition. We board a small wooden boat and set out on what I think may have been a large lake. The dream skips ahead and we are now approaching a blown up, burnt out town where we can hear gunfire and shouting in the distance. Sometime later after coming up over a hill we stop, and watch as what looks like a small multi-storied building is being overran with these creatures, some people are still shooting out the windows while others are being ripped out and torn to pieces in a very brutal manner she mutters there is nothing we can do and the dream ends.

when these dreams started i was alone in them and very terrified the first one took place at some party in a very lavish building where these things first appeared overran everything and killed all of my closest friends, I bearly made it out by coming across a pry-bar and savagely fighting my way to a emergency exit on the bottom floor. The girl did not come into play until later, I dont remember exactly when. Before she appeared though I was always alone feeling almost feral, while fighting my way through streets hiding in dark corners, trying my best just to survive.

As far as I remember they have gone in a sort of order, they are all very vivid, and highly real feeling anytime i get hurt in one of these dreams I basically actually feel it and still have the memories and can recall the pain i felt.

Am i just crazy or is there some sort of meaning behind this?

A few more details about these dreams as i mentioned i can feel pain, and still recall what i felt and how bad it freaking hurt. Here is another example say I'm using some sort of firearm, if I'm really just laying on the trigger I can feel the recoil, smell the burning gun powder, when i reload sometimes i don't know how most of the time its a weapon that i have no experience with and have to figure it out, by finding a way to get the magazine out pulling another out of my pocket or waste putting it in, and racking a round in the chamber.

I've also ruled out too many scary movies etc. as i like to watch comedies the last semi-violent movie i watched was avatar....when it came out.

[Thunder Bow]

Ask your doctor to see if "Avatar" is right for you.

Beware what you are saying to others. Are you gunning them down with words, and offten talk over them while they are still talking?

[bluecupcake]

Do you play video games or games online? Sounds like a video game. If I had a dream like that I would think that in my waking life it feels like a battle and I literally have to struggle to keep my head above water and survive. The fact that in your dreams you started out alone and then that blond girl appeared, maybe you're looking for help in your waking life? As for the realistic sensations of the dream, I'm sure there is a scientific explanation for it, like lucid dreaming. I recently had a dream that I was flying and it actually did feel like flying. I looked it up and it's called a lucid dream. You should talk to a trained professional about these dreams especially since you've been having them reoccurring for the past year. Peace.