[Snow74]

So pretty much all my life I've had issues with sleep probably from my earliest memories. It started out with nightmares that just wouldn't stop. In fact sometimes I could swear to you I was awake wide awake and experiencing terrifying hallucinations. One night I'd go to sleep fine no problem but then the next I'd be readying myself for bed when I'd say hundreds of spiders crawling around my room on my bed on my teddy bear. I am soooo afraid of spiders bleh. . I remember screaming and screaming like oh my GOD there's spiders everywhere and one of my parents or siblings would come in the room and be like there's nothing there! How awful it was for me I must of been about 7 or 8. I was confused I didn't understand why I'd see things sometimes that no one else could. Sometimes I would see shadows of people walking in my room just as if they were just walking on past.
The dreams would upset me both emotionally and physically.
When I was younger I would dream that this boy I knew would be hanging by a noose outside my bedroom window. It was a recurring dream that lasted for like 3 years. I would go to the window open it and start screaming and crying trying to pull him in then his eyes would go from glassy and empty to being alive with blood coming out the side of his mouth. He would look at me and say I'm sorry please help me I didn't mean to!
Why would I have such awful dreams between the ages of 8-11?
When I got a little bit older I again started having recurring dreams with this clown who would do horrible things to people and I'd be forced to watch while unable to do anything. Red was a huge trigger in the dreams sometimes still I react to the color like in a heebie jeebie way. The recurring dream just was awful it felt so real the whole time and I would wake up so exhausted. It was like the dream grew with me until eventually it just stopped.
In the last 5 years I could probably classify myself as being insomniac and maybe having chronic fatigue I'm not sure. All I know is lately I'm tired all day and night but I can't fall asleep for the life of me until its like 5 in the morning. After I've slept I still feel as if I'd never gotten any sleep. Ugh my dream life is messed up and so is my sleep. Can anyone else relate to me?

[tcon]

I often have problems falling asleep, it really sucks. But it sounds like your nightmares were brought on by stress, maybe there was emotional stress going on in your family life when you were a child?

[aakriti90feb]

you should do meditation, or join yoga classes. that may greatly help you.