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I had a dream that my T confused me for someone else with my same name and emailed me this very personal video of her boyfriend.

In this video, he is wearing just sweatpants and his face isn't in the video. He takes off his pants and shows himself off naked. T is the one filming the video as she was telling him to undress. T wrote a caption, telling her friend that she is so happy/proud of how well she shaved his genital area.

In the dream, I remember feeling kinda bad for T because I have a common name and I've had people accidentally send me things meant for other people in real life. I emailed her back saying that she emailed the wrong person and not to worry about it, people confuse me with someone else all the time, and I'll just forget that it ever happened and I'll delete the email.

But I didn't delete the email because she didn't respond to me. I secretly was really weirded out by it but also thought boyfriend was totally hot. He had a great body and I thought his penis was wonderfully shaped and sized. I wasn't sure about the whole shaving it though, but if they like it that way, good for them. I was also a little confused as to why she would send her friend images of her boyfriend naked. I felt kinda guilty that I knew what my T's boyfriend looked like naked and I also felt kinda guilty for being attracted to him. It just felt like something I shouldn't know.

In real life, I have never met her boyfriend or even seen a picture of him. I know he exists because she occasionally brings him up. I guess maybe I'm curious about what he looks like, but I actually do not want to see a picture of him. It's not a jealousy thing because I do not experience any attraction to T.

I don't know what to make of this. The only thing I can think of is that maybe I feel like she is very controlling because she did just completely objectify her boyfriend in the dream by shaving him, stripping him down, and sending the video to someone. But in the dream, it didn't really feel like that. I assumed that everything in the video was consensual and that he was into her doing that stuff. I wasn't sure about sending the video though. And she also serves as a medium to send me sexual stuff in the dream... I don't know. I still can't piece it together.

[Thunder Bow]

You work in Therapy is probably exposing some sexual feelings in you. Tell your therapist about this dream.

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Originally Posted by Thunder Bow

You work in Therapy is probably exposing some sexual feelings in you. Tell your therapist about this dream.

Sexual feelings for T? I don't think so. Sexual feelings in general? Yeah probably.

[Thunder Bow]

Yes, those feelings in general. You are exposing your self more now.

[HazelGirl]

A lot of the time, emotional vulnerability is mixed up with sexual vulnerability, especially in CSA survivors. So that's quite probably a major contributing factor. And yes, it would be good to tell your T.

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Originally Posted by HazelGirl

A lot of the time, emotional vulnerability is mixed up with sexual vulnerability, especially in CSA survivors. So that's quite probably a major contributing factor. And yes, it would be good to tell your T.

I probably will if I can remember to tell her. I haven't spoken to her in almost two weeks and it's horrible.