[Aescob53]

This is more of a question/opinions from other people kind of post. I just woke up so hopefully this will make sense.

My brother committed suicide on August 4th, 2014. He would be 23 if he was still alive. He's about 5 years older than me. So I just woke from having a dream about him, and my mother and I like to think of it as him coming to visit us (keep this sentence in mind). I've had a dream about him before, and it felt so real, but it was awhile ago. In that dream, he was driving in a car with one of his closest friends and I noticed him in the car. I guess we noticed each other because he looked at me and got out of the car, and I ran up to him bawling my eyes out and hugged him. I didn't let get in the dreams. I remember telling him "I miss you" and he told me that he missed me too and just held me. And just like that the dream was over. Now that was the first dream I've EVER had of him.

Now in the dream that I JUST had, was sort of similar, except it took place in my house, here is what happened. Now my brother loved music. In the dream, I was doing something ( can't remember what ) in my mothers room and all of a sudden this type of music ( to me it sounded like happy kind of gospel music ) started to play, and I peeked out of my moms room to see what was happening. When I play my ps4, I usually place my chair in front of the TV because I have bad vision, and he was sitting in that chair, facing me, smiling away. I slowly walked towards him and was already crying, and he stood up to walk towards me with his arms out. But then I backed away to record it on my phone to see if it was actually happening and stopped it a few seconds after. When I reached him, I have him the biggest hug and then gave him a kiss. I couldn't believe he was in front of me. I remember we talked a little bit, but I don't remember everything we talked about. And then my mom came home, and when I tried to find him, he was gone. I looked at her and started crying telling her was happened and immediately checked the video I had recorded to see if you could see him in it, and you could. And that's all I really have to say about the dream. I wish I knew the meaning behind the dream. What are your guys' input on this?

[iwonderaboutstuff]

He's very much a part of you and your life (keep this sentence in mind). His death anniversary is coming up and he's really dead, and you're still trying to adjust to that. You are not going to forget him. Your mom is dealing with his death in her own way that's different from you.

[Thunder Bow]

Yes, he is very much a part of you, that you have embraced.

[IrisBloom]

I also had an older brother who committed suicide. I dream about him on a regular basis. The scenery changes but usually the same sequence of events. In my dreams he comes and tells us that he was hiding for some reason, but now wanted us to know he is ok. I find comfort in dreaming of him.

Your mind is still processing the emotions of it all. I wouldn't worry as long as the dreams are peaceful and not scary.