Driving myself to insanity help please?

Hi there please bare with me it may turn out to be a long post. But I desperately need some answers although I'm not sure how much people can help with this one!

I am basically having trouble working out of this actually happened or if it was just really a false awakening. I've had these quiet a few times before.

Basically I am a new mum, my daughter is just over 4 months. I totally adore her and she is our world.

She's being like all babies are, very spontaneous lately with her sleeping patterns which in turn means 1 tired mummy!

So she woke early the other morning and would go back down again. So I gave in and took her in our room in the hope she would sleep for an hour and then we would both be refreshed to face the day! This was possibly around 6am.

Now I never sleep fully when she's next to me as I'm very aware of her. What happens next seems like a false awakening in my logical head. My illogical head says it was so real it has to be true. It goes like this...

I "wake up" and realise I'm being very untoward towards my daughter (makes me feel physically sick thinking and writing that) I think someone is asking me what I am doing but I'm not 100% sure they are. I then say to my daughter "oh sorry" and pat her knee, all very blaze. It's at this point I must have properly woke up and realised it was a dream and fell back asleep, however, I do not really remember waking up thinking it was a dream and going back to sleep.

I eventually wake up properly and it doesn't even enter my head. I've completely forgot about it. I went and met some friends for coffee with my little girl and then came home in the afternoon. It was at this point that something obviously triggered me to remember it and now I am agonising over it to the point where I can't sleep and I feel so sick I can't eat and feeling incredibly guilty, wondering if it really did happen?

Has anyone experienced this? Has anyone any advice?
On a side note the horrible thing that was happening in the supposed dream is something that is so far from my mind and a bit random too it's something that I would never in a gazillion, trillion years do or even enter my head.

Thank you in advance,

A distraught mummy.

Your dreams are centered around your anxiety of being a new mom. Seek a support group for new moms, or a therapist. Talk to your doctor about your feelings about being a new mom and its responsibilities.

Welcome to motherhood! As a mom of 5, I can assure you that IT WAS A DREAM, so relax. I had some of the most horrible dreams when my kids were babies, especially with my first. A lot of these dreams are due to 1. a lack of sleep, 2. concern and fears for the baby and 3. (this is most often with the 1st child) resentment towards the baby. Yes, That's right! I said resentment towards the baby. You have had a complete and total disruption and upheaval in your life by having a baby. It's normal, relax, and feel free to come here and vent.