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I have had this recurring dream since childhood. I am in a house it feels haunted or possessed. It is an older home with many rooms and hiding places. Sometimes I just feel the presence and try to hide from it. Other times the presence finds me hiding and proceeds to hurt me in some way. One time I was hiding in the tub and it split my gut and I watched my insides spill out!
Other Times I fight to wake up because he is trying to kill me or strangle me. Different variations of this dream but It occurs sometimes frequently. Sometimes I recognize the dream and try desperately to wake myself up. I am afraid of the outcome. Sometimes I wake up with the feeling that he is still with me. I don't know who he is. I have a history of CSA and it may be related to that. I have a lot of nightmares and wake my family up with screaming, yelling, crying. I haven't shared with T yet. I am afraid what he might think. I also have nightmares about bridges and drowning. Can anyone explain why I keep having these dreams over and over! I have horrible sleep habits and my insomnia is bad at times. I always feel tired. I am afraid to take sleep aids/meds.

Perhaps it's related to something that happened in your childhood? I get this and have just talked about it with my T and found the session very helpful. Will wait and see if my dreams change tonight! I don't think it will happen immediately, but depending on your relationship with your T, it might be a good subject to talk about. FWIW I've tried every sleep aid under the sun and it made no difference at all. Maybe if you talked about it, it might help? If you read Freud or Jung, dreams are how our subconscious processes the **** we go through during the day......

[Thunder Bow]

Anxiety is keeping you from saying how you feel in your gut. Work with your therapist on your anxiety.