[BluesyQ]

Not sure if this is the right place to post this, but I felt like I needed to share this. I have been broken up with my ex for almost three years now. Have been in relationships since, but never really got over him, despite many reasons why I should have. But it haunts me almost daily.

What's worse, is that I have dreams about him almost twice a week. Very vivid ones. Usually it entails me going to a party or something at his house. Being worried that he will be mad I'm there, his friends all being kind and engaging with me (as in the dreams they are the ones who invited me). Ultimately I see him and he just says hi or nods and is nice, but that's it. Even his girlfriend (who he is now engaged to) speaks to me and engages in these dreams. Only in one dream did we end up talking and I said to him over and over "I guess the heart wants what it wants".

Every morning I wake up happy that I saw him and want to go back to sleep because something is always about to happen.

I know that is weird. But this has been going on for too long. It's doing a number on me. After almost three year I should be done and rid of this, but at the same time I feel like these are signs that I need to address things? I don't know. Never had recurring dreams like these other than the anxiety dreams (teeth falling out, going onstage not knowing my lines. . .etc).

Any advice?

[Thunder Bow]

I these dreams you are engaging yourself. Interacting with yourself. You are now going more with your own heart.