[BadWolfC]

I have them every once in a while. I've had a lot of boyfriends in my life, but my subconscious just can't seem to let go of the first one. I think maybe I feel guilty, and that's why I can't let him go even though it's been years since I even saw him. I've moved on and am engaged now, so it isn't like I'm waiting to make amends or something. I just wish I didn't have these dreams anymore. I had one last night, it was just he and I talking, and I remember him giving me a hug and asking me to stay. When I woke up I almost started crying, maybe because I wished I could have stayed, but knew even if I could, I wouldn't. I'd never give up what I have now, even for him.

I think the reason I feel guilty is because I know he left me because I was out of control back then. If I had known him at this point in my life, I think everything would have been fine. I just wish I could let it go... We broke up 5 years ago.

Have any of you gone through something like this? Any ideas how to get through it?

[Artchic528]

First loves are hard to get over. Believe me, I know. I think you are just needing some emotional closure. Have you discussed this with anyone?