[estrella]

I quite often have dreams about my mother. As a child, they would always be of me trying to escape the house I was growing up in and running down the street. Although I knew I was dreaming, I somehow could never quite force myself to go faster down the street or to fly even. They just never happened and it gave me an overwhelming sense of fear.

Ever since she passed away, I've had a few dreams about her that weren't scary. One night, when I was homeless, I slept over at somebody's house and when I fell asleep, I could hear her yelling at me to stop the stuff I was doing. I cannot remember entirely what she said, but that dream has stuck with me, because she was in her younger, healthier years before the abuse began.

This morning, though, I had a dream about her, and I know it was triggered by a video I had seen posted somewhere around the forums. Some of the things said was exactly what my mom had told me, or a variatof it, time and time again.

But my dream was just like before: I wanted to escape the house I was living in or my mom was going o kill me. She was freaking out, yelling screaming, and it wasn't clear about what. My siblings, who had never really made much of an appearance on these dreams, were there, and holding me back. My mom said something was wrong with her arm, and she stated screaming, and wa dialinnhw 911 because she was about to have a heart attack. She blamed me. While waiting for the ambulance, she kept stealing my notebook of drawings and nitpicking every single one...well, there were only two. And I had ripped out the first one, and she was trying to find it, to remind me of how bad I was. And I started writing in cursive in the form of a tornado on a new sheet and my brothers were trying to tell me it was wrong, everything I did was wrong.

Sooo...no more videos or talking about the past on a night where I don't sleep till morning! I need a hug. Don't know why I got scared in the dream, apart from her temper.

[misslabarinth]

That seems to be strangely close to some of my dreams, i don't necessarily remember what I was running from, however I would often run down the street - I could hear something chasing me- however everytime I tried running faster, it would feel like a large weight was dropped upon me, and I would only slow down. This causing me to become extremely anxious/scared, all I wanted was to get away. However the dreams always ended right before the 'thing' grabbed me.

[Thunder Bow]

The dream came from old feelings where you felt you can not do any thing right, where you were consently nit picking yourself. You fear these feelings will overwhelm you.