[ladyrevan21]

So I had a pretty disturbing dream last night. (Or part of a dream -- whenever I remember my dreams, I usually remember segments of them)

Possible trigger:

Basically, I think I might have been a detective on a case involving a four-year-old girl who got sexually exploited in a chatroom -- and even writing this is making me feel sick -- and there were things like taking care of the kid and catching the guy who did it. And plenty of anger on my part, and a fear for the girl in question. The room where the dream happened also looked pretty weird -- it was cold, sterile and just generally a grim-looking place; it looked more like a prison cell, as I remember, than anyone's bedroom. Which really just makes the dream even stranger -- I don't think it's a repressed memory because I can't recognize anything in there (except maybe the computer, which reminded me a bit of my mom's old computer I used to fool around on, but I must have at least been in grade school when it happened, and I never went into any chatrooms), but it was definitely very disturbing.

Honestly, I'm not sure what set it off. The girl in the nightmare wasn't anyone I recognized, and it wasn't me (she had lighter hair), and I can't imagine a four-year-old using a chatroom. I'm just hoping it's my anxiety setting off the dream because it was pretty horrific.

[Thunder Bow]

The room is a place of depression. Probably was your depression. Probably one of past feelings. The fact that the 4yo. girl was taken care of, means you are taking care of yourself. This can be a dream about your own personal healing.

[ladyrevan21]

Could have been. I know the room's got a different computer now, and it's not really very sterile -- it's kind of a frilly room. But I think the dream might have taken one aspect of that room and transplanted it into a different environment. But it's the place where the photo albums are kept so...I think it might mean that I'm terrified of what I'll find in my past. And I'm trying to take care of myself as best I can, even though I am basically terrified.

[Thunder Bow]

You interpretation is a good one. You are looking into the cause of your anxiety.

[ladyrevan21]

Yeah. *Sighs* I can't bear this. I might be a bit quick rushing into memory recovery, but I just can't take it anymore. I need to get out of my own house, but I barely have a job to hold down, or any money, and I'm still in school, which just makes things "better". *Sighs* I hate my situation. And I'm too much of a coward to get out of dodge.