[liveforsummer]

Never had a dream interpreted but here goes:

In my dream I was my current age (lets call it middle aged) and I was talking to my mom and asking her what happened to me as a child (1-2 year old). I could feel I had gone through something traumatic but had no idea what. I had flashes of seeing my picture in a magazine or newspaper (again as 1-2 year old) but in the image I looked full of fear, traumatized, mentally not physically. I was then shown a clip of an old type movie reel and in it was a young version of my mom holding me and we were on the grassy grounds of some institution, we appeared happy. It was then (in current time) my mom told me I had been a test subject for euthanasia (though my mom was told at the time it was for something else more innocent). Then I woke (in real life) and I felt horrible, frightened and sick to my stomach. Probably took me a good hour to shake it.
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[Thunder Bow]

A recall of an early memory? The dream could also mean transformation, and the kind of feelings that can come with it.

[liveforsummer]

The only memory I have of that age bracket is of being babysat and for some reason being upset and getting a wet wash cloth and throwing it towards him. I thought I was older (5-7) but my mom says I must have been younger as the only time they used a male babysitter was when I was 2-ish. That vague memory haunts me at times because I want to know why I did that. Ugh.