[Amethyst_Stargazer]

I always have dreams where I'm angry and yelling. I think this is because I have PTSD. However all of my friends are leaving me or not speaking to me any longer. I have so much anger inside of me due to abuse and it's appearing inside of my dreams.

However anytime my friends are leaving me and refusing to not talk to me, it upsets me and lingers on my mind forever. A few times I was crying as I was dreaming without me knowing it. None of my friends are actually leaving me, yet they keep appearing inside of my dreams. Maybe I'm simply afraid they'll end up abandoning me due to the abuse I went through with my ex boyfriend.

I'm not sure. However I trust all my friends and know they deeply care for me. Which confuses me. Why is it appearing inside of my dreams? I'm planning on buying a dream journal soon so I keep track of all of them.

[SorryShaped]

It's in your dreams because you aren't getting it out in your daily life. Do you have a consistent therapist, at least twice monthly, and are you trying to do this there?
Your wording reminds me of someone very sweet that I used to know with such a gentleness to him but an inner rage that could sink a fleet of battleships on dry land. You need to get rid of this anger to get rid of some of the PTSD. At least that helped me tremendously with my PTSD.