Ugh!

I'm hoping that venting will help. It's getting closer to midnight. Homework is done. T session is complete for the week. Yet my mind seems very busy. I could get anti anxiety meds but it's downstairs. I should get up and do something but for some reason I don't.

I keep thinking about the session, and the paper I'm writing. Both are connected. And there's a yawn, with bad breath. Anyway, I have been thinking about the past. Things that led up to today. And the root cause, and what's in my castle. I guess I'm anxious. Yet when my head hurts the pillow, all I can do is keep thinking.

I'm playing the what if game. It's not helping but I keep playing the game.

And it's a stale mate. When will I fall asleep? Why is my mind so active!!!!!

We do the same thing... Way more than we would like...

Sleep is too important for me to stay in a good head space. And I've been having more sleep issues. Like waking up and still feeling tired then going back to sleep, without meaning to. I may have to start taking an Ativan before sleep. It's a lost resort but I need better sleep

We will fall asleep again if we stay in the bed. We have to get straight up or it's over.