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Default Sep 11, 2021 at 01:10 PM
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Over the past several weeks, I have started having recurring dreams where I am re-living a memory from when I was 15 years old where I was having to ride in the middle between my mom and 11 year old sister in an old Chevy Silverado that we had at the time. In both the real life memory and the dreams, I go into an argument with my mom about having to ride in the middle and she lead me out to the truck and made me go ahead and get in the middle seat and buckle my seatbelt; then my sister came out and got in the passenger seat and we had to wait forever for mom; and when mom finally got in after around 20 minutes she couldn’t get the truck to start and we ended up taking her van instead. While the event was minor in my life, it still bothers me and causes me lots of stress and anxiety almost 30 years later.

The dreams are like a replay of this memory and generally follow how I remember it going. They normally start when I find out I am having to ride in the middle between my mom and sister; then have me arguing with my mom about riding in the middle until she makes me go out and get in the middle seat and buckle; and then waiting in the truck for a little while by myself; then my sister getting in the passenger seat and she and I waiting for a really long time for mom; then mom getting in the truck and spending a while trying to get it started until the battery eventually goes dead. However, in some of the dreams, my memories seem to get exaggerated and things can be much worse and sometimes much darker than what really happened. This has included all of the following happening at least once and sometimes several times in the dreams:

- My mom dragging me by my arm out to the truck and then buckling me into the middle seat herself.
- Noticing the truck really stinks and then having my mom notice I have stepped in dog poop while trying to start the truck and getting in my face and yelling at me for not watching where I stepped.
- Some of my friends playing in our back yard while me and my sister are waiting in the truck and staring at us because I am in the middle.
- My sister getting in my face while mom is trying to get the truck started; then my shoving her; and then mom yelling at me and spanking me for shoving my sister.
- Seeing my friends starting at us while mom is trying to get the truck started.
- Mom getting angry that the truck isn’t starting and loosing her temper at me because of it.

I know in the real life memory the only time my mom snapped/got angry at me was when I was berating her about having to ride in the middle and that she was just mildly frustrated when she couldn’t get the truck to start. I also know in no way was I ever under any abuse in the memory although as a 15 year old boy, I thought having to ride between my mother and younger sister was humiliating and unfair. I also know I felt like I had no control in the memory and expect I am probably having these now because the Delta Variant of the Coronavirus is getting really bad where I live and I feel a lack of control because I have done everything I can to be responsible but cases just keep getting worse and I fear new restrictions because of it.

I am hoping others may be able to add their interpretation of these dreams and possibly provide suggestions for things I may be able to do to get them under control.
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Default Sep 11, 2021 at 07:41 PM
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Over the past several weeks, I have started having recurring dreams where I am re-living a memory from when I was 15 years old where I was having to ride in the middle between my mom and 11 year old sister in an old Chevy Silverado that we had at the time. In both the real life memory and the dreams, I go into an argument with my mom about having to ride in the middle and she lead me out to the truck and made me go ahead and get in the middle seat and buckle my seatbelt; then my sister came out and got in the passenger seat and we had to wait forever for mom; and when mom finally got in after around 20 minutes she couldn’t get the truck to start and we ended up taking her van instead. While the event was minor in my life, it still bothers me and causes me lots of stress and anxiety almost 30 years later.

The dreams are like a replay of this memory and generally follow how I remember it going. They normally start when I find out I am having to ride in the middle between my mom and sister; then have me arguing with my mom about riding in the middle until she makes me go out and get in the middle seat and buckle; and then waiting in the truck for a little while by myself; then my sister getting in the passenger seat and she and I waiting for a really long time for mom; then mom getting in the truck and spending a while trying to get it started until the battery eventually goes dead. However, in some of the dreams, my memories seem to get exaggerated and things can be much worse and sometimes much darker than what really happened. This has included all of the following happening at least once and sometimes several times in the dreams:

- My mom dragging me by my arm out to the truck and then buckling me into the middle seat herself.
- Noticing the truck really stinks and then having my mom notice I have stepped in dog poop while trying to start the truck and getting in my face and yelling at me for not watching where I stepped.
- Some of my friends playing in our back yard while me and my sister are waiting in the truck and staring at us because I am in the middle.
- My sister getting in my face while mom is trying to get the truck started; then my shoving her; and then mom yelling at me and spanking me for shoving my sister.
- Seeing my friends starting at us while mom is trying to get the truck started.
- Mom getting angry that the truck isn’t starting and loosing her temper at me because of it.

I know in the real life memory the only time my mom snapped/got angry at me was when I was berating her about having to ride in the middle and that she was just mildly frustrated when she couldn’t get the truck to start. I also know in no way was I ever under any abuse in the memory although as a 15 year old boy, I thought having to ride between my mother and younger sister was humiliating and unfair. I also know I felt like I had no control in the memory and expect I am probably having these now because the Delta Variant of the Coronavirus is getting really bad where I live and I feel a lack of control because I have done everything I can to be responsible but cases just keep getting worse and I fear new restrictions because of it.

I am hoping others may be able to add their interpretation of these dreams and possibly provide suggestions for things I may be able to do to get them under control.
It possible that you may have unhealed hurt from that memory that you have not let go of yet. Have you been under a lot of stress lately?
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Default Sep 13, 2021 at 06:55 PM
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It possible that you may have unhealed hurt from that memory that you have not let go of yet. Have you been under a lot of stress lately?
I have been under a lot of stress lately due to the worsening situation with the Delta Variant where I live and am experiencing lots of anxiety at the possibility of restrictions being put back in place if cases continue to grow like they have been.

I also know I have lots of negative feelings in regards to the memory.

I feel anger towards my mom for (1) letting my sister choose where to sit and making me ride in the middle; (2) making me get in the middle seat of the truck and buckle-up when I tried to tell her it was embarrassing riding between she and my younger sister; (3) making me and my sister wait in the truck for her for a really long time; and (4) not making sure the truck would start before making me get in and buckle.

I feel anger towards my sister for (1) choosing the window seat when she smaller and could have gotten by in the middle better; and (2) invading my space and breathing in my face while we waited in the truck for mom to come out and get in.
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