[myoasis89]

I had a dream that seemed very real. I wanted to get married, so i arranged (without telling the two men) that I was going to marry them. Basically I was going to marry one of them and they got to choose if they wanted to marry me or not. My family was very excited especially my mom. It was a sunny day and our backyard was decorated for the wedding and I was dressed in a beautiful gown. ( in real life my mom wanted me to have the wedding in her backyard)

I called my ex to see if he wanted to marry me. In real life i put my ex through misery and hurt him. he was 24 and I was 18 when we started dating. I didn't understand the dating world and our relationship ended badly. 1 year later I tried to make it up to him and said sorry, he wouldn't accept my apology. In my dream he declined and said he did not want to marry me.

I was upset and a little scared because if he didn't want to marry me I only had one other person I could ask to marry me and that is my current bf. I phoned my current bf. This time it felt weird because i was asking him to marry me, not the other way around. I asked him on the phone and there was silence....then he said, I'm a single kind of guy...I'm not ready to marry yet and he didn't want to have a family. In real life my bf is not fond of children and doesn't want a lot of kids if he gets married. Basically he wanted to just stay bf and gf for awhile...and if something changes then it changes

I was so upset and ashamed. Everyone was so excited for the wedding including myself. When I told my mom the news I was so embarrassed and she seemed saddened as well. Everyone was confused when my mom told them the wedding was off...everyone went home...and I just dealt with the embarrassment on my own.

could someone help me interpret this dream. I know it's a little long and complicated...it's probably more difficult to interpret because you need to know a little more about my life...but if you could give it a try I could expand and give a little more info about myself
thanks