[Kiya]

Dream: I woke up to the sound of mom banging around in her room, pulling open the blinds of her window. I ran in and saw a huge spot light glaring into her room. Mom didn’t understand what it was, but I saw it was a helicopter and was very, very low, below the treetops even, right in between rows of houses (which aren’t really there in real life). I moved to the window to see what was happening and I saw a neighbor run out side, hiding in the shrubs to see. Then off to the left, through the trees, were a bunch of men dressed in fatigues running up the road while a gang of armed gunmen came through the shrubs. I saw the neighbor try to hide. The gunmen saw mom and I through the un-shaded window, so I ran from the window and I think I saw from the corner of my eye the woman neighbor get captured. As I was running back to my room and trying to think of what to do – like put heavy furniture in front of the doors to keep out the gunmen yet knowing they could easily come through the ground floor window – a spot light fell on me from the (non-existent in real life) window at the end of the hall. I froze. I noticed there was now a man in the room with mom and I was back at her door again. I noticed a red dot of light tracing the walls – a laser from a gun’s sight! I hit the deck and yelled to mom “GET DOWN! NOW!” She stood there like a deer in the headlights, and the man was still trying to figure out what to do. He seemed to understand the situation and was trying to help. That red dot was right overhead now. “MOM! They’re going to shoot!! GET DOWN!!!” She finally got down to the floor very slowly… I thought I could already see her body exploding with bullets. But she made it, there was no shooting. The chopper seemed to hang outside our window for an eternity with the spotlight glaring and the red dot seeking its target. Finally, it moved off and I ran to my room, and hid by my bed on the side away from the window. I was shifting, trying to be comfortable when I realized there was a bald man in fatigues in my room looking to kill who lived there. He heard me when I rustled a plastic bag next to me. I froze and worked on being invisible. He searched the whole place again but did not see me, even though I would have been visible. He left and I breathed a sigh of relief.

I woke up in real life from the nightmare.

Then fell back asleep, went to tell mom about the nightmare, then returned to my room and the bald man in fatigues was there again!! I crept silently back into my original hiding place, once again working on being invisible. This time there were others with him, all looking for me. Dream changed again and we’d been captured – I can’t remember all who were there. One guy was holding a box cutter and approached me because I wouldn’t give into his demands to be led out to the convoy. He’d already unsheathed it and said, “I’ll cut your arms into ribbons!” I shook back my sleeves and said “Already done that, thanks” and showed him my SI scars. He blanched.

Again I woke up from that second nightmare.

Hmm.. I have had dreams like that, featuring military or authority.

It was a long time ago during the gulf war in the 90s.. i think that was the gulf war right?

Have you been reading news about the war overseas? That could certainly trigger a dream like that.

[Kiya]

thanks rainbowzz =)
yes it was the Gulf War in the 90's
I found a site on the net "Dream Journal" where you can fill in all the things about the dream and it will give (often Jungarian or Freudian) interepretations (can't spell today) but also others can do the same - like here. One person there hinted that the military aspect of the clothes suggested that I feared an institution. and he was quite right - I had just come from therapy where they are having everyone (on financial aid there) fill out these "goal forms" and i had huge anxiety around it. I think that was the connection. I still don't know why i was so paranoid... perhaps because my dad was always paranoid of "institutions".
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