[sky dancer]

Gale forces winds, a scene repeated over and over. My lama tells me to do retreat for a year.

[Sphinx_23]

I'm no expert, but my guesses would be:

gale force winds - being pushed around, forced into something, or a loss of control

repeated scene - inablity to let something go, or obsession with something/someone

Does that help at all?

[sky dancer]

Originally Posted by Sphinx_23

I'm no expert, but my guesses would be:

gale force winds - being pushed around, forced into something, or a loss of control

repeated scene - inablity to let something go, or obsession with something/someone

Does that help at all?

That sounds about right--especially the gale force winds. The repeated scene is trauma bonding--being attached to people have no genuine caring for me or ability to love.

[sky dancer]

Last night's dream:

I'm at a retreat. There are many people there that I do not know. I'm trying to find a bathroom to pee, and I open one and there are like seven older women laying on the floor pissing. I back out of the room.

I go to another room and the phone rings. I answer it. I hear a woman's voice, but it's hard to understand her. She says her name is Mrs Steiner, and that she just got some bad test results. She says she has AIDS and that I've given her AIDS!

I hang up the phone confused. I've never met a Mrs Steiner. I don't know who she is. I don't have AIDS.

I look for someone who knows Mrs Steiner. I find a woman that looks very prim and proper. She says the Mrs Steiner is her 'second mom'. I say "is Mrs Steiner your mother?" She says no, " I just call her that". I tell her that Mrs Steiner has a delusion that I have given her AIDS, but I don't have AIDS and I've never met Mrs Steiner.

The woman says she will straighten it out.

I find Mrs Steiner and I introduce myself to her. I tell her that I don't have AIDS, but I am happy to meet her and get to know her. In the dream, I hold her hand, it it closed shut from arthritis. She eventually smiles at me.

Here's my own interpretation of the dream:

I had a falling out with a friend. We are not talking to each other. We've never met, and we don't know each other well. She is pissed at me and she thinks I've given her a computer virus and it is ruining her life.

Both of us were triggered by each other--old issues--which is why I think the women are all old in the dream. I think this dream represents my own wish to become whole and free of past triggers and to befriend all parts of myself, even the paranoid ones.

I also think it represents a wish to resolve a conflict with someone I was unsuccessfully trying to get to know. A stein is a beer mug, a cup or a container. Not sure why the lady's name is Mrs Steiner--perhaps something to do with that--someone who is holding resentment against me.