[want2shine]

Hi all,

I don't have so much of a question as a vent/cringe! I find a lot of things anxiety producing & today, I had a new student (a big-wig in a firm, wanting conversation classes in english). I was soooooooo intimidated & am sure (definately) I bumbled through the hour class. But though that particular hour was painful, I recognise that my other classes with the other students today were ok.

I just find it sooooo difficult to keep going, keep fronting up to things, when the world can be a big scarey place (full of judgements & potential avenues for failure & embarrasment). I wanted to acknowledge other people who feel the same yet who keep persisting with difficult challenges, who keep getting up, despite all the setbacks & embarrassing moments & failures. It feels awful to me not to feel I'm good at anything... but I feel I just have to keep on keeping on...

I wonder if others feel the same & if you have strategies to keep yourself 'up' when your internal critic is trying to bring you down & the big wide world seems so scarey.

My husband used to suffer from esteem issues too but he is pretty good at keeping positive & facing challenges now. His love of sport helped him, taught him lessons about that - rising to challenges, testing oneself. I'm learning... but ever so slowly. Another friend last night said something that amused me, when she hit a setback a while ago... she said "Bob Marley can't be wrong.. and he said everything little thing's gonna be alright." That little thought got her motivated to keep on. I thought this was touching & heart warming.

Best wishes all.

[gma45]

Originally Posted by want2shine

Hi all,

I don't have so much of a question as a vent/cringe! I find a lot of things anxiety producing & today, I had a new student (a big-wig in a firm, wanting conversation classes in english). I was soooooooo intimidated & am sure (definately) I bumbled through the hour class. But though that particular hour was painful, I recognise that my other classes with the other students today were ok.

I just find it sooooo difficult to keep going, keep fronting up to things, when the world can be a big scarey place (full of judgements & potential avenues for failure & embarrasment). I wanted to acknowledge other people who feel the same yet who keep persisting with difficult challenges, who keep getting up, despite all the setbacks & embarrassing moments & failures. It feels awful to me not to feel I'm good at anything... but I feel I just have to keep on keeping on...

I wonder if others feel the same & if you have strategies to keep yourself 'up' when your internal critic is trying to bring you down & the big wide world seems so scarey.

My husband used to suffer from esteem issues too but he is pretty good at keeping positive & facing challenges now. His love of sport helped him, taught him lessons about that - rising to challenges, testing oneself. I'm learning... but ever so slowly. Another friend last night said something that amused me, when she hit a setback a while ago... she said "Bob Marley can't be wrong.. and he said everything little thing's gonna be alright." That little thought got her motivated to keep on. I thought this was touching & heart warming.

Best wishes all.

Don't let the big-wig scare you! He was there to learn something from you and I am sure you did just fine. It's that inner voice saying you are not good enough, you are though! I love that Bob Marley song! We are always our own worse critic.