[HurtYetHopeful]

I am in my late twenties, and I've pursued modeling off and on (mostly on in my twenties) for fifteen years. I've earned some money doing it, but rarely enough to make ends meet. I struggle to pay for basic needs like clothing, transportation, and rent. I occasionally in the service industry to supplement my income. I cannot stress enough how much I absolutely, positively DESPISE those jobs. They feel degrading, because they're far from the modeling career I wanted. The financial struggles, and having to work "survival" jobs I hate, indirectly remind me, "If you were better looking, you wouldn't have these problems."

The way I feel about myself would likely come as a surprise to others. People often compliment "my height, my slenderness, and my long, toned limbs" and my curly hair (even though I HATE it!).

When I look in the mirror, the reflection might look the same, but it feels different. I see someone who's too short (I'm 5'9). A few people have pointed out that my legs are short compared to my torso, and I am extremely ashamed of this. My frizzy, curly hair makes me feel frumpy, ugly, and homely. One day I covered the mirrors in my apartment, so I wouldn't have to look at my hair. My face bothers me too. I have OK cheekbones, but they could be better. Overall, my face is plain and boring.

I can't make my legs longer, and I can't make my cheekbones higher. I can't make top agents or designers say yes. How can I stop resenting myself for this?

[Altered Moment]

Welcome to PC.

Maybe you can reject the expectations of the modeling industry. Very few people can live up to them. It has to be a horrible environment I would think. How they define beauty doesn't match reality and real beauty in my opinion. Beauty is an inside thing.

Your wording is slightly confusing to me. Perhaps it's grammatical, but if you could clarify, it would help..
Did you omit the word "work"?
And what "service industry" are you referring to? I don't want to make assumptions that are wrong.