[Aviza]

I have got several bills all ready to be mailed when my check arrives. I organized others, called a few more to get them the information they did not have to process my medical correctly. All the bills I plan to pay are medically related, he destroyed my credit cards so bad I could never do that on my own, so I have to file bankruptcy on that stuff. If I could I really would pay it off, but he broke so many rules, and dug my personal 19K debt into over 100K. I'm really sad about that.

I have always felt better after getting stuff paid. He just sweeps stuff under the table constantly. It's so stressful to live that way. I mean I had like 3 or so medical bills that were hundreds of dollars, they hadn't submitted them to insurance. The ones that were submitted I'm working through. Next month about $200 will go out, if I get a job it'll be faster to pay back the remaining $800, otherwise I'll see how I can organize it, the big bill is a little over $500 for the surgery/biopsy I had.

Staying with my mom at least until Feb. probably March is my current plan. I started therapy, will be getting back on meds soon. The therapist was impressed with my perseverance she said. I tell you that's because I feel God is with me. He's really helping me get through this.

[Skeezyks]

I celebrate your determination, Aviza...

[Amy Hasanxiety]

For me paying my bills even though it could lead to having under ten dollars in my account feels I am taking care of myself and not hiding from the bills like I used to, which only snowballs after a while. Thank you for your insights.