[xx_tpm-life_xx]

Im so tired of being me.... I cant stand myself sometimes... my depression has gotten so bad and my anxiety is just as bad, my self esteem is sooo low.. I want my bestfriend to love me back. im a drama queen atm and I miss my dad.. my psychologist doesn't understand me... I want to feel normal again.

[kaliope]

if you are willing to find a way out of this cycle, a good way to start is to find one thing positive about yourself. something you absolutely cannot dispute. like for me, i am an excellent writer. (lazy in posts, emails, texts, etc) but on papers, reports and stuff, all through school i have never got less than an a on anything i have every written. no matter how bad i feel about myself, i cannot say i suck at writing. then when that negative self talk happens, you counteract it with the positive. so it sounds like this. "i cant do anything right, but i am a great writer" so after you put yourself down for something, you are then bringing yourself up. then you keep looking for more positives in your life. other strengths you have. it is helpful to come up with ten good things about you and read that list a couple times a day, post it somewhere that you will see it often. doing things that make you feel good will also raise your self esteem. abe lincoln said "when i do bad, i feel bad, when i do good, i feel good" and it is so true. when you make decisions that are not healthy for you, you feel bad about yourself. when you make decisions that are the best choice, you feel good about yourself. if you have a negative thought, you are going to take a negative action and feel bad about yourself. so consider how you can change that to a positive thought so you can take a positive action and feel good about yourself instead. that will raise your self esteem.