I've been trying to acquire healthier lifestyle habits for the longest time, but keep obsessing over people then thinking I'm boring..

My whole life, I've been told I'm too quiet, that I should loosen up, be happier and have fun. In high school, I was called names because I didn't drink alcohol.

What these losers didn't realise was that I grew up in an abusive household which obviously had an impact. I've also just always been thoughtful and reserved by nature and interested in calmer solitary activities like writing and reading. I do feel that had I been supported and encouraged to speak out, I would have, but instead the message always was that I was just wrong..

When I got older, I went through a period of partying hard and trying to be funny and wild :P That was over and done with pretty quickly as I didn't find it much fun, but the nagging suspicions and fear have remained that I'm about the most boring person in the world..

Especially if I start to eat healthy, exercise, go to bed early, and immerse myself in the activities and hobbies I enjoy like writing and reading.. I mean, I do actually like people and like chatting to them, and I even like to go out dancing once in a while, but is it really so wrong to prefer a calmer environment and need alone time, too? Is the 'good life' really boring?

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I don't find it boring. And I can't help what other people think. So I just do my own thing.

Thank you, Fharraige! Exactly what I needed to hear

Another thing that bothers me is wondering whether people will go, 'Who does she think she is!' if they saw me trying to make my life better.. As though I had to remain miserable just because I always have been that way!

I know these weird people exist and find it sad they think like this.. But like you said, I can't control what others do, so maybe I'll just leave them to it - I'm sure there are nicer people out there, too, who'll think it's GREAT that I'm trying to improve myself and my life

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