Struggling with self esteem

No, I don’t mean low self-esteem I mean extremely self obsessed. I think that I am better than other people but something tells me that this is wrong. Something inside me is feeling like I am not what I think I am this kind of hurts my self-esteem cannot be really you know measured unless other people tell me
I’m so glad there is a place here to share. I feel better now already but don’t you think people will judge me for it
If I am judging people all the time
That they’re not mature or they’re emotionally this or that
This is really painful It’s giving me earache
Because of the stress, the breathing so difficult
But it’s okay I guess I will find a way out. I will ask my Therapist how to deal with overconfidence
What is another word for overconfidence?
Narcissism?
I don’t know
I am a little self-centred and selfish. I think that is a good word.
I will tell my Therapist mam. I think I am becoming selfish and self-centred. This is affecting me because I tend to judge people in this will stop me from making friends
Maybe not stop me like I can make friends, but I will be quick to judge
For example, my friend, he didn’t understand how I felt when my mom called me
She called my name, and I was terrified
Because of the way she called me
And then she went off, and I had to follow her
When I came back, I told him that that is going to haunt me
He said what’s the big deal it’s just your mom calling you
He doesn’t understand that some moms are not normal
I literally read a book and it says that she is narcissistic
Like how is that even possible?
She was Manipulating me by telling me that my memory is all fogged up
She told me, I am the reason my parents are having problems
So this can’t be good
But most people don’t understand
At least here somebody understands
There are so many people going through so much stuff
I’m glad I can share a feel better now
It’s like there is always someone to hear
It’s not like my WhatsApp friends
They’re not online, and they’re all younger than me
They don’t understand what I’m going through
The people who are my age either don’t like me or or too busy
There is a part inside me I know which is hurting
Which is why I tend to judge others has lesser than me

That doesn’t change the fact that everyone is imperfect
Why do I want to be perfect so badly?
Maybe because my mom made it seem like the ultimate thing
My friend also said that I am to immature
And that made me very insecure
The world so harsh
But some people are nice
I have experienced very less of that
I hope I find more people
Thank God God be with you all
But I still don’t know what to do

Hi @Blah nlah - welcome to MSF. I am sorry you are facing challenges that seem difficult. That must be rough on you.

What I do is try to use my posting experiences on MSF as practice for how I can treat people in real life. I try to avoid saying things that people in real life will react negatively to. It is not easy but speech is such an easy way for me to wreck relationships. I try to avoid that as much as I can by watching my thoughts and editing them just the way I edit a post here on MSF before I hit the Submit Reply button. It takes practice, but I can overcome some of the challenges I face. But I have no control over other people, only how I react to what they do and say. That is what I focus on.

Is there something here that I’ve said wrong? Or something people might react negatively to? I wanna be safe for my next post if I’m posting

Earlier, I mentioned that I feel I am better than other people. I want to believe in the value of self-improvement, understanding that we all have room to grow.

I used to say that some moms are not normal, but I've come to realize that some moms have unique qualities, just like everyone else does.

I had stated, 'She is narcissistic,' but I now understand that this may not be entirely true. She exhibits narcissistic tendencies, as described in the book I read, and I'm trying to better understand her.

While the world can be challenging, there are also kind-hearted people here. I believe in finding those individuals who bring positivity into my life.

I used to feel that people of my age either didn't like me or were too busy. Now, I understand that people of my age group may have different interests or busy schedules, and that's perfectly okay.

My WhatsApp friends are usually unavailable, and they're younger than me. I'm hopeful about meeting more people and am seeking guidance on what to do next

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Originally Posted by Blah nlah Is there something here that I’ve said wrong? Or something people might react negatively to? I wanna be safe for my next post if I’m posting

Hi @Blah nlah - I am not aware of anything but as long as we follow the Community Guidelines, nothing to worrry about.

Hope all is well with you. @CANDC