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#1
Oct 07, 2010, 10:38 AM
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I don't understand where this 'sense' that there's more is coming from.
 I don't understand why I can't just be glad that my childhood was somewhat stable and relatively good. Why do I focus so much on the things that were Bad? and why do I keep wondering what else happened? Why do I even get the sense that something else happened? Am I just empathizing too much with others? Maybe the depression is just playing tricks on me. Maybe I'm searching and reaching a bit too much in my effort to get to the root of the depression. Maybe the PTSD is just from my husband's affair. Am I really even affected by the Bad things that happened? And if I am now, why wasn't I before? I just don't get it. Maybe I should just go on medication and stop thinking about everything so much...
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Oct 07, 2010, 11:46 AM
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Your childhood is for development. If you are having issues, something didn't go right. Uncovering what didn't go right and repairing these things are important things to do.
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Oct 07, 2010, 02:11 PM
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Thanks. That makes sense...
I guess I'm just angry. I felt I had enough 'crap' to deal with from my younger years, but I also felt that I was doing ok dealing with it. I could handle what was there and see past it and get on with life. Now, it feels like rather than sweeping a little dust under the rug I must have swept a mountain under instead and now the rug is falling apart and I'm left standing with all this... a big gaping hole that's trying to swallow me. And I don't even know who it all belongs to.
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#4
Oct 07, 2010, 03:33 PM
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Yeah, I remember when I felt like those Italian street kids during WWII who were living in bombed-out buildings. http://italian-mysteries.com/LCA01.html
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Oct 07, 2010, 03:45 PM
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yes. a lot like that.
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#6
Oct 08, 2010, 01:38 AM
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So is it time to clean out under the rug then?
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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#7
Oct 08, 2010, 08:52 AM
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I think it is... but don't really know where to start. Don't even know how to approach it. And even thinking about it makes me say "Why bother? It's really not that big of a deal. I'm probably just depressed and so blowing things out of proportion. If I wait it out, I'll be fine."
More hesitation. very out of it today... my head hurts.. more bad dreams last night. that's what I get for going to bed at midnight. much too early for me.
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#8
Oct 08, 2010, 01:30 PM
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But this is what is causing the depression. The best place to start is where you are at, the issues that you are having today.
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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Oct 14, 2010, 10:25 PM
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Invisigirl,
 Not sure how to support but your very name sounds familiar to me. Be good to yourself, I'm pretty sure you'll get to the bottom of this as long as you keep seeking in as gentle a way as you know how.
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Oct 14, 2010, 10:54 PM
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Thank you, Hunny.
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wife. mom. swimmer. writer. trying to live life in spite of depression, dissociation, and PTSD. member of a club that no one wants to join... |
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