[hopefully21]

I find myself struggling with the pain i feel i dnt want to feel anything. Surviving the abuse as a child and still as young as i am having to struggle. Developing unhealthy coping mechanism to numb the pain. Sometimes i think to myself and wonder why am i here, and that i am a failure. Why did i survive my suicide attempt to only be hurting still. Sometimes it hurts too much, to the point where i feel like i wld of been better off. If i did succeed i wldnt be hurting and questioning everything i do in life. I just want peace and to be happy. Im tired of putting on a show for people and trying to be perfect. I just want to be happy i just want this pain to end. Someone once told me that time heals all wounds, if so i wish i had a magic wand to spend up the process. Im tired of feeling how i feel

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by hopefully21

Im tired of putting on a show for people and trying to be perfect.

Why do you have to do this?

Originally Posted by hopefully21

Someone once told me that time heals all wounds,

They couldn't have been talking about emotional health issues because the only things that heal these are therapy.

[hopefully21]

Because n my family perfection is everything accept nothing but the best just being put on a peddle stool n its such a lng way down its better now because im away at college but will be hme n a few weeks for a month until nxt semester n i just know i am gunna have to play this part smdh i dnt know anymore

[Sannah]

So what do you think would happen if you didn't play your part?