feeling alone

i cant communicate with people. just end up making them mad.

dont think my csa and other stuff has anything to do with it. im just not good around people.

Your CSA has everything to do with it. Everything.

What happened? Our childhood development has everything to do with it and growing up in a dysfunctional home with CSA sort of messes with childhood development - it can all be worked through as an adult, though.

You feel your CSA had nothing to do with it? What do you feel did?

I'm thinking other things could have impacted you too- a lot to do with your parents-depending on what you're experiencing; I'm think what you are feeling now you also felt as a kid-I agree with Sannah-child development.

I would try to talk about it..do you have a T? CSA is a lot to deal with by itself, and then other things that happened to you can cause distress too...I would try to explore that...what is it that's making them mad...is anger what they really feel...and that cliched but really important question, how does it make you feel.

Also, I'm wondering if there is a reason you would want to rule out the CSA...I know it sucks to have have so many affects from it...I remember a friend of mine got so sick of everything being a result of that...it made her scared and hurt and angry...she was left to think "all I am, who I am..is it all CSA?" and that can be a really hard struggle if you're dealing with what's you and what's that.

Take care
(((((suzzie))))

I am sorry your going thru this...Offering safe hugs if okay However (not that were all the same) but sometimes we live in denial of the very thing that is the cause of the problem (CSA) is something that is so hard to face and deal with that we want to disown it and find something else as the problem to focus on....The very fact that you mention csa makes me think that at least sub-consciously your aware that there is a problem? Just a thought!

Take care Kalisha

thank you for your replies.

i just tend to say something wrong quite often.

ok, you may be right. but its also just the way i am.

Yes, this is what healing is all about. You find areas in yourself that you can work on. You work on them and then your life improves. We all had areas that we had to work on because of your upbringing in dyfunctional families. You keep working on each issue that comes up and before you know it you have worked on a bunch of stuff and your life is much better.