[KeeperOfSwords]

Lately I've been thinking about the past a lot and it never seems to leave my mind. I was sexually abused from the time I was 6 until I was 13, and it hasn't really bothered me until these past couple of years. I've been trying to get myself to adjust to feeling basically nothing all the time, and when I can feel it's usually anxiety which makes me start shaking and I can't stop it. Anyways, that's not what I need to talk about right now. My problem is that, well...when I go through my memories I actually get aroused. I feel so digusting because of it, it makes me sick to my stomach everytime I think about it but I can't help it. I don't want this to happen. Anything sexual scares me and I want nothing to do with it. So why is this happening all of a sudden?

[Sannah]

Keeper, you were sexualized at an early age, earlier than when you could handle it. It is normal to have sexual feelings and be aroused. Are you in therapy? All of these things would be really good to work through in therapy (your feelings, your past, and your sexual feelings).

[Omers]

You are not alone. Our nervous system only knows it was stimulated not the hows or whys. It is a very scary, uncomfortable time. I went through it in college when I finally got away from my abusers. Arousal of that kind is difficult to overpower. I tried using grounding techniques but found they were not strong enough. I used loud music, cold showers, running... Things that were safe but more powerful than the sensation. I also found it very helpful to have a friend who would sit with me and keep me focused on them. Once the sensation past drawing or jounaling would help to calm me back down.

[Irine]

http://forums.psychcentral.com/showthread.php?t=165251

Here is a recent thread JUST ABOUT THIS!!
yes this is normal. i know it feels like **** but it is.