[Gracey]

I posted this in the creativity link, but i think it is suitable here as well. I'm having a rough week this week. Feeling like a tramp, a *****, a slut. Shall I go on?

A ***** IS A *****

Dried up. . .Used up
Worn out
A f*cking slut
Tied down. . .Bed bound
Make the child
A ***** hound
Pigtails. . .Ponytails
Slap the brat
And make her wail

Forget the tears
No one will hear
The silent scream
Heard only here

Tiny eyes
beheld the sin
A tiny heart
Breaks
Again
A tearless eye
blinking fast
Holds back pain
From
The past
A tiny hand
takes the blade
On perfect skin
One wound
Is made

Inside my head
The chant slows down
It casts off pain
From which I’m bound
The child within
I’ve come see
Despite my cries
Is really me
The woman I am
Is nothing more
Than dried up
Used up
A *****

A *****

((((((((((Gracey)))))))))))

[BlueFaith]

((((((((((((Gracey)))))))))))))

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((((((((gracey))))))))))))))))))))) i'm sorry for your pain and i hope you can get some space between it and you very soon.

your poem beautifully screams your pain.

[Overcastbutclearing]

(((gracey))))

Gracey,

I hear your pain and am so sorry for what you have been through. Anything that is done to someone against their will and wishes is in no way their fault or should lead to any " labels". You are not a *****, slut or anything else that demeans your wonderful spirit that was strong enough to survive and touch this world.

Not meaning anything against you or your poem-- it's just that gender-prejudice labels cause me to become very upset. I wonder if a woman would benefit if she tried to think in the way a man does on this subject-- a woman would be a "stud"-- "Don Juan"--"Experienced- in a good way"- and any number of other compliments-- I think it's about time men and women quit the one sided labels-- to me-- if a male doesn't get the label-- then neither should a woman.

There is no such thing as a *****- or slut-- unless it can encompass all humans- at least that's the way I see it!!

I suppose my view is unrealistic as women are and have been held at higher standards in just about every way of life throughout history-- and yet have less value-- as the "labeling" reveils (and many other practices around the globe)--- labels are put on things with less value- IMO.

I hope I haven't offended you-- it is certainly not my intention. I am very sorry for your pain. I just get a panic kind-of-reaction over me when I see such gender-specific labels, when I know there is not such a degradation put on the other gender--- it really hurts my heart. ---- the injustice of it.

I wish you peace and healing--- if only I could take your hurting away, I would.

Kind thoughts to you,

mandy

[Gracey]

I felt that way. . .I think b/c that is what I was told I was. I felt used.. .the man doing the using didnt feel the same way I did, but I can understand where you are coming from in your points, Mandy.

I think maybe it came out of a bad mood. Have been "challenged" by my group leader to do the ONE thing I haven't yet done. . .VERBALLY TELL. I have been thinking a lot about that. . .kind of put me into a funk I guess you could say.