troubles

so I don't really know where to post this, and I know I haven't contributed as much as I should lately but it's gonna have to be here because i feel most comfortable in this part of the site.. so i was in a terrible relationship for the last 4 years (refused to openly recognize me as his girlfriend the last 3 years.. although monogomous and routine hangouts/dates, 'i love you's', etc.) but he was blatantly abusive emotionally and i think i've managed to come to terms with that.. but I also managed to get myself pregnant and had an abortion a couple of weeks ago. My family just..plain sucks, so i can't tell them about it so i'm doing the next best thing i suppose because i feel horrible myself and i'm looking for the light at the end of the tunnel here but it really just seems like an endless shitshow for my life story thus far

..on another note i have a paper to write about family origins and I can't come up with a decent intro..much less a thesis. I suppose it's the assign't that triggered this problem since i've been fine with the decision I made and our consiquent break up ofcourse up until now..but i'll fail if i don't start writing soon. I pretty much ended what was the closest thing to family ive had so I don't suppose i start with that..

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time right now.

there is nothing wrong with being totally honest in your paper. you can paint as ugly a picture as you want. as long as it pertains to the topic.

I'm glad you got out of that awful relationship before it got worse. that takes a lot of courage and strength! I know it can be hard to call it quits on a relationship, but you'll be better for having done so. I hope someone wonderful and truly worthy of you comes into your life soon.

hang in there.

Adversity comes in all shapes and sizes. Since we are human there is no escaping it. There is also no way to escape the fact that we ARE human and we make mistakes. We have to learn and grow from all of these variables to be bigger, better, stronger people.

All that matters is love. The only way I have found to have it come back to you is to give it away. That is not to say you give it away to abusive and unhealthy people. You give to yourself and to those who have needs that are greater than yours. You invest it in those things that YOU love to do. I find that throwing myself into "creative" pursuits gets me out that "my crappy life mentality"

In the words of Abe Lincoln: "This too shall pass"

Love and Light

J

Good work for taking good care of yourself. How is the paper coming?

thanks guys... my paper is done Sannah.. 4 hours of coffee and tears later. I think my problem was that I didn't really grieve, i mostly just did what ive always done with problems. But I meditated and sent my apologies somewhere and I feel a bit better. Thank you all for replying it really means alot..i was going crazy stuck in my head the whole night

Very good! Very insightful that you realized that you need to grieve.