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Apr 29, 2011, 11:07 AM
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In life we think our skeletons will never come out to haunt us or hurt us. Not true In my life I had to relive and tell my story to many important people. To become a stronger person, I often wonder why could we just let it be. When I was a child I tried to be a "avoice" and tell the system to believe me what me father was doing to me. Well the system failed me. So I went on with life living in and out of foster's homes. Until one day The system wanted no more to do with me. They sent me back home with the Father that abused me. That night he said to me be ready tonight I ask Him why He said you know why I said to Him You lay another hand on me or another child you will pay So that night I took off at that time I was 15 years old. I knew a loving couple that lived a couple blocks away. At rirst I went under a bridge for shelter to get on with my life on the streets. What I didn't have was a plan to go with. Without a plan I would end up dead. So I went to that loving family. They took me in and loved me as their own. They did not know what layed ahead of them a 15 year old mesed up kid. What they did know that I needed someone to love me as a person. In order to live with them I had to tell my father where I was. So He got mad; the Father said to my Father you want her back you're gonna have to go through me. So the end of that I got my self together and went on with life thinking it was over I got married. Things happen in my marriage and had three beautiful kids one Day things started to change things were happing all at once I could not handle it. So I said good bye me, hello ED. at the age of 32. Went in and out of treatment centers. Finaly one Day something click in order to get better I had to be that "voice" I so wanted to be when I was little. With that I went far how far as far as God would let me and that was far. What changed? My father is in prision. I'm in recovery. Now another skeleton has to come out I have to tell my eating disorder to some important people. Ok tomorrow will be the day. I already told my story to my side on Monday. So on Wednesday I have to tell the other side the same story. They are people that are not on my side and will be attacking me. I plan to be calm but let the "voice" be heard. What i'm asking for is please pray for me. Thanks "Avoice"
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Apr 29, 2011, 06:36 PM
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Good luck..........
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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Apr 29, 2011, 08:39 PM
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Apr 29, 2011, 10:11 PM
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(((((((((((avoice)))))))))))))))
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Apr 30, 2011, 03:29 AM
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I can relate so much to your story it is unbelievable! The system failed me also. At one time I had a T tell me - the worst thing your father did to you was take away your ability to say no. He took more than that one word, he took my voice. I am fighting so hard to get it back, it's not easy. I'm proud of you for finding your voice and using it. Someday, I hope to be able to do the same. You truly are an inspiration to me!
BTW - how did it go on Wednesday?
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 Children's talent to endure stems from their ignorance of alternatives. ~ Maya Angelou Thank you SadNEmpty for my avatar and signature.
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