I can't ****ing take it anymore

I can't I just can't, I ****ing hate being here, I ****ing hate it so much.
I miss being at my old school where people liked me for who I'am, now I'm in a ****ing alternative school for ****ing idiots.

I can't be myself because the students here either think I'm gay or weird because I'm nice to everyone, just now as I was coming in the school to get settled, this guy I knew had the longest hair I've ever seen and he had it cut so I said "You got a haircut? I like it, I think it looks good" then he acted like I was hitting on him which I wasn't, then a few mins later, the ***** who was sitting with him sneeze and she said "Ugh, I'm allergic to stupidity" then he said "yeah it was from Marcus"(which is my name).

When I first came here I tried to keep to myself because I knew this was going to happen.

Guees thats what I get for coming out of my shell.

I'm soooo ****ing tired of this happening to me.

Just because I'm too ****ING nice doesn't mean I'm gay or anything.

Why the **** are people like this

((Ardmore)) - I'm sorry you're upset and got this rude response, just for being a kind person. I'm not sure of your age, but some teenagers have a huge bad attitude. I know this because I have 2 girls, 9/13. I can't believe the degree of rudeness and comebacks. A pet peeve of mine is the way they use the whole gay comments as a way to insult and bully. I noticed this started around grade 5 and it's still present at my daughters grade (8). I bet if you were to take a poll at your school, almost every kid has probably been called this or had this implied.

You're right...just because you're nice doesn't mean you're gay and even if a young person is..,..that's fine. It's proves their own prejudice and ignorance, so don't take it personally, even though I know it's hurts. Hopefully you can find some other nice students to hang around with. Sorry this happened.

Thank you, I just wish I could return to my old lifeBTW(I'm 16)

Like you said, people are idiots.... Hang in there man, school, no actually the world will always be full of people who can't accept others for who they are... trust me if someone where kind to me i would be kind back, if at all this helps, your replys and posts on my pro. help me come out of my depression! you're kindnest is needed everywhere, even if someone doesn't show it, you could of made someones day a whole lot better. Don't change who you are for some dumbass, people will always find a reason to put others down, so why not just be yourself.... Hope it gets better for you...God Bless...

Very true Halen, this has happened to me in the past and I hated it.

Ardmore, they are the ones with the problems not you, okay. Please continue to seek out other kind people. Please don't let their choices of behavior make you feel bad.

Ardmore - this has absolutely nothing to do with you...some people are jerks. Don't change who you are because of them. BTW - I was tortured, teased, ridiculed in HS because I didn't fit the mainstream...it does get better!

Children's talent to endure stems from their ignorance of alternatives.
~ Maya Angelou

Ardmore, you are learning a lesson here, it's not you. You have to understand that they are the ones that are insecure, not you. What they just did to you on the bus is they showed you that they can't accept a real compliment and they are also saying that they are not worthy of it.

You have to understand the language of others and what is behind what they are really saying. The fact that they said, oh, Im allergic, wow, thats pretty sad, they are really saying, oh I can't accept kindness, I don't get it at home and I don't deserve to get it here either.

The other thing that they are saying is that somehow you ARE getting something THEY don't get, and really need. But they somehow DON'T FEEL THEY DESERVE IT, OR THAT IS WHAT HAS BEEN HOUNDED INTO THEM IN SOMEWAY.

The term gay is often used as a catch word for weakness, what it really means is the same as above and that somehow you have to be put down for giving out any kudos or affirmations. These people are not happy confident people, they can only get confidence and some sort of sick control by downing others. Good thing they are warning you, heed their warning, they are only going to try to put you down or control you, they don't know anything else.

You have to look at this a different way. Someone in that school feels like you and maybe you are placed there for a reason, to seek out that other person and befriend them and support them. I think you should take another look and see if that person is there, they may be hiding, especially if they have been there longer.

You have to see what is really being said, and NEVER let another person PUNISH YOU, for being a good person.

Open Eyes

I actually got a bit annoyed because of what these people have said to you. It is good being kind. You should continue being kind. Ignore what these idiots say. They are the ones with the problem and bullies like these decide to pick on people because they have nothing better to do with their sad lives. If these bullies continue acting like this then they won't have much friends in the future. I actually think you're a very nice person and I love that There should be more kind people like you in this world. Please try to stick with the good people and be who want to be. Being nice isn't gay. The bullies need to get their facts straight. maybe they're too dumb to realise this. Please continue being nice and being you. People will like you because you're a lovely person