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Jul 14, 2012, 01:49 AM
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Growing up my parents are really religious and they used their religion to justify hitting me and also emotionally abusing me. I don't ever talk much about this because of the topic of religion and controversy of it. But my dad said to me that I had to act like he was my "god" since god put him in charge of me. He said if i didnt then i would go to hell and be punished in this life too. I guess he took care of the punishment part .He also made me believe that whenever something bad happened to me it was cause i did something wrong so it put a lot of guilt on me. he told me that my panic attacks were gods way of punishing me because i was a disobedient child and that demons were attacking me. It made me believe i was possessed by the devil at one point when i was a teen. I am shaking so bad typing this but i didnt know where else to get it out.
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Jul 14, 2012, 06:17 AM
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so sorry you went through that.
You ok? xx |
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Jul 14, 2012, 06:29 PM
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I'm sorry you were hurt so badly.
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Jul 14, 2012, 11:13 PM
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You don't believe that,do you?
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Jul 14, 2012, 11:55 PM
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Are you still religious or not? I am asking because if you are, it might make sense to turn into a forgiving, loving, accepting branch of that same religion with which you were brought up. I am pretty sure one is available.
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Jul 15, 2012, 12:40 AM
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I'm okay thanks. No I am not I am atheist now
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Jul 15, 2012, 10:26 AM
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Yikes! You deserved better.
 This would be really good stuff to discuss with a T.
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Jul 15, 2012, 01:45 PM
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Jul 15, 2012, 06:05 PM
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Oh I am so sorry, that's so hard. I can fully understand how difficult it is. I was 1/2 raised by my grandmother who was very much like this. Mom was a sinner so no matter what I did I was going to hell with her when we passed, you know the routine.
It's so hard and I want you to know you are not alone. It was WRONG the way you were treated, they were the evil that they accused you of being. I hope you are safe now and with a therapist because this is something that should be addressed in therapy. Please take gentle care of yourself
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Jul 16, 2012, 06:08 AM
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I'm so sorry for what you went through. My mother was/is very much the same way, and told me some of the same things. I just wanted you to know someone understands. You did not deserve to go through all that, and I hope you're in a safer place now.
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Jul 16, 2012, 09:55 PM
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My father verbally abuses me (yes, currently; I'm 14, still under his roof)... He treats me like I'm stupid, calls me names, makes me feel ugly and fat... When I finally get the guts to try and tell him that he's doing wrong, he denies it and tells me to essentially shut up, that since I'm his child I will do what he says and not "talk back" to him. He's never hit me before, though I remember him kicking my eldest brother when he was about 17, and my youngest brother (just 5 years older than me) he shoved down on the ground and looked like he was about ready to kick him, too.... I know this doesn't hold a candle to what you've been through, however. Again, I'm very sorry that you had to go through that. Fathers seem to have no idea what kind of scars they inflict on their children to have for years to come. Please know that there are people here for you, that care, and wish you best in the days to come.  Hugs! - Your caring friend, Tasha, from Texas
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