I got married at 19 to get away from my familly. I could have gotten out before but I was taking care of someone at that time. But that's another story.

A week before my wedding I told my mother that I didn't wanted to get married, that I was making a mistake. She got mad at me and said there was no way I was turning back, that all the wedding was planned and everything and that I was getting married and that was it. So I did.

I got married to the most awful person I have ever met in my life. He was abusive in every way and laugh about it. He said I belong to him, I was his toy.

Did you ever got a knife under your throat if you don't please someone sexuallly? Can you be rape by your husband? Oh yes you can!

I wasn't allow to get out of the house unless he was with me. I wasn't allow to make phone calls. I wasn't allow to have friends. I was his prisonner. If I did he would beat me up. One day there was a small kitten stucked under my porch. So I got out and unstucked this poor little fellow and set him free. My ex arrived at same time. I thought he would never stop hitting me.

Then the next day he brought home 2 tiny kittens. He said they were mine. They were a gift. I adore animal and I didn't say no. I took care of them like they were my treasures. 3 weeks after that, one of them climbed on the table where he was eating. He took him in his big hand and threw him on the wall, killing him. Then he took the other one, said he was a bastard too, and threw him against a door, killing him too. He would have killed me, he wouldn't have made more damage. He broke my heart in pieces.

A little while after that, he came home with a puppy and my heart broke again because I knew this small puppy didn't had any chance in our home. My ex showed me a receit of how much he had paid for the puppy saying that I should reliase how much I was spoiled. The next day, I took the puppy back to the pet shop, because my husband had showed me the receit, I knew where he had bought it. Told the pet owner I didn't wanted any money back, just to take him back and take care of him. Then I went home, pack a bag pack and left, never to return.

I was married to that man for only one year. A year of hell.

[Rapunzel]

I am so sorry that you went through that. And glad that you got out!

((((((safe hugs))))))
Rap

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((((Time0)))))))))))))))) I am so sorry that you experienced that abuse. I too am glad that you got out when you did.

[Sabrina]

I am so sorry Time. This triggered me somewhat so I can only offer you my understanding. For now.

[Rhapsody]

I am so SORRY!!!! - ((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS )))))))

You may borrow my HEART if and when yours feels broken with memories from the past....

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[wisewoman]

YOU GOT OUT, I am s glad. oh this is so sad and triggering. I hope you are in a safe place now.

I wrote this down to remind myself how strong I can be.

I wrote it to encourage myself.

I wrote it so I can keep going.

I wrote it so tell myself: Come on Time0, you can do this!

Thank you. No need to reply.

(((((( time0 ))))))