[Ardmore]

I can't stop thinking about this since I heard about it over the weekend.

A family friend wanted to take senior pictures of me since this might be my last year at school, then when I arrived we were talking about my mom whom she was really close to.

She told me that my mom tried to convice her to kick me out of her house so I would have to stay at my moms in the morning (I live about 20 minutes away from my school so I stay at my family friend's home in the morning)

After every single thing that she has done, she still tries to force to do what makes me feel uncomfortable.

My enstranged sister lives with her, and she knows that we fight all the time as she can't stand to see me and she is married to a druggie who is emotional abusive plus even if I did stay with her, she always leaves me alone and does her own thing.

The family friend (who is like a mother to me) told her no because she knew that if she did that to me, I would be miserable so now my mom cut her off because she said no.

I'm ****ing sick of my piece of **** mother, she saids she can't contact me and that she loves and misses me but heres the thing: She knows my dads number, where I go to school, where I live, where I stay in the morning.

It's obvious she isn't putting in the extra effort into even seeing me, and it's always been this way ever since I was younger there were times I literally had to beg for her to pick me up.

She is nothing but selfish and it's starting to take its' toll on me.

I haven't seen her for two years, why would I want to see her if doing so makes me restart the whole healing process again.

Guess it always happens as she never leaves me alone even now.

[Sannah]

Ardmore, is it hard for you to accept what kind of person that your mother is?

[Ardmore]

Originally Posted by Sannah

Ardmore, is it hard for you to accept what kind of person that your mother is?

Well yes, because of how she is she has affected many others lives for the worse.

Is it wrong to not accept who she is?

[Sannah]

It isn't wrong at all. It is good for your mental health. Just so that you really understand what I'm saying, I'm not saying that you accept the way that she is and then go on and try to have a relationship with her anyway. What I'm saying is that it would be healthy to accept that your mom will never be the mom that you need her to be and that you will never be able to trust her. When I encounter someone like this I keep them at arm's length and beyond. It seems like you are still hopeful that she will one day be the mom that you need? She has disappointed you how many times already?

[Ardmore]

Originally Posted by Sannah

It isn't wrong at all. It is good for your mental health. Just so that you really understand what I'm saying, I'm not saying that you accept the way that she is and then go on and try to have a relationship with her anyway. What I'm saying is that it would be healthy to accept that your mom will never be the mom that you need her to be and that you will never be able to trust her. When I encounter someone like this I keep them at arm's length and beyond. It seems like you are still hopeful that she will one day be the mom that you need? She has disappointed you how many times already?

Too many times that I lost count, I just believe that it's not hard to be a mother to grown children but she just makes excuses of why she can't.

I know you're right, it's just I still want to think that she will change but I guess that time has already past.

[Sannah]

It just hurts you by not accepting who your mom really is. Good luck to you.