[SQLVR]

About five years ago I was in a very abusive relationship. My partner was emotionally abusive and had done sexual things to me. Before this relationship I had struggled with anxiety and depression, which got worse during the relationship. After the relationship ended I started seeing a therapist, started medication and got better. Although I got help for anxiety and depression I never told my therapist the extent of the abuse. For five years I sort of pretended that it never happened, bu things have gotten more difficult to deal with lately. This past week I had a doctors appointment where the doctor (male) had to touch my stomach during an examination. This caused a panic attack,which later turned into dissociation and a suicide attempt. I spent three days in the hospital. I don't know what to do now. I feel if I tell my therapist he will be upset with me for keeping this so long. I don't understand why this is still effecting me five years later! Even writing this post has taken longer then it should because to the anxiety I have about talking about it.
I want this to go away!

[Travelinglady]

Hi! Well, your therapist might be a bit upset that you didn't share the extent of the abuse, but, as you see, it is having a major effect on you. I suggest you go ahead and share the rest of the details. You do need help in getting over it!