[pizi98]

I was abused as a child... Never have told anyone about it. I left at 17 and have never been back since. Anyway life was going fine until recently I've started hearing my parents talking in my head and I can't get rid of it . I don't understand why I'm suddenly getting this, I've been fine for 4 years . Now I keep on hearing my mother shouting and my father as well. Saying their going to hurt me again, and I'll never get away. I sometimes had dreams of it but never voices in my concious state..what is wrong with me??? I thought I'd finally gotten away

[lynn P.]

(((pizi98))) - sorry for your suffering. Yes its normal to feel fine and years later still suffer the affects of childhood abuse. Its a huge factor in how we turn out as adults. Most of the time people need to work this out in therapy to unlearn bad patterns and habits. This is yours minds way of saying "there's work to be done in order to heal."

[Solepa]

Unfortunately pizi getting away doesn´t seem enough. I did that too I left when I was 18. I was doing fine I had no serious problems for nearly 10 years. And then my body started to go crazy on me. I did not know what was happening I had to go to therapy. And now I see that I just shut so much stuff away and never dealt with it. It never disapeard it was just waiting for me to be ready and because I wanted to forget it all it started to get very impatient and would not let me.
It is hard but I believe we need to deal with our past to be able to heal and have bright future. I wish you all the best and good luck.

[BLUEDOVE]

Hi Pizi,
There is a phenomenon called "Auditory-
Imprints." Which is the things we heard,or were
told,are embedded in the psyche. Here is a truth:THE WAY OUT IS THROUGH,NOT AROUND!
You must get to a counselor and work through
this.Meanwhile,use your imagination in a quiet
room,and delve into the images and words . . . .
only THIS TIME,see yourself as you are now,
strong,and standing up for that child you were.
E.G. "Don't you DARE touch that child,sit down
and keep your mouth shut!" Or a little more
colorful if you wish (you get the idea). You will
have to repeat it many times over time,until it
loses its power over you. How I feel now about
mine? They are of no consequence . . . .none at
all.
Courage+Kindness,
BLUEDOVE.