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May 16, 2013, 11:04 PM
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I am so tired and so afraid of my dead dad, the one who sa'ed me from 4 yrs to 11 yrs. His essence is everywhere and I am afraid of him. I don't know what to do anymore. It is getting unbearable. I can't sleep without him there. I can't watch tv without him there. I can't shower or eat or anything without him there. I wish I was dead. I really do. I'm not going to do anything, but I still wish it, you know? What do I do? Dear God, what do I do??
 
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May 16, 2013, 11:06 PM
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 I really empathize. my residual feelings from being abused are with me, too, very strongly. Carol
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May 16, 2013, 11:07 PM
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I wish someone can help me. But no one can. It's hopeless Hopeless hopeless. God help me.
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May 16, 2013, 11:08 PM
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May 17, 2013, 10:21 PM
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More hugs. So sorry it's so hard for you now.Carol
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May 18, 2013, 01:05 AM
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My pdoc gave me benadryl to help me sleep. It helps me sleep even when I am so afraid. And sleep a little deeper. I am glad. I am so tired and so afraid. Thank you Carol, just thank you.
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May 18, 2013, 12:44 PM
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Lauru I'm sorry you are going through this and I just wanted to tell you that you are not alone....my wife has been experiencing something very similar. She has said things very similar to what you have said and more. As if the abuse wasn't bad enough....she feels like she is being haunted by her dead abuser. It is very scary. The lack of sleep makes it harder for her. Sleeping pills have helped her fall asleep....sleep deeper....stay asleep longer....this seems to help some. She has also been more honest with her therapist about what she is experiencing and feeling...this seems to help some too. Please don't feel hopeless or helpless....seek out the help you need....something to help you sleep....a different line of therapy....whatever it is you need....just please don't lose hope. All I can offer is and my own hope that you...my wife...and everyone else will make it through this. Gman
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May 19, 2013, 01:53 AM
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Thanks Gman. I see my pdoc for therapy too and he is great. He is helping me out with this alot. I too, like your wife feel as though my dead abuser is haunting me. But one thing my pdoc said was if he could still hurt you wouldn't he have done so already? And his spirit hasn;t physically hurt me, so maybe he can't. I hope so. But mentally this is all so damaging. He does haunt me. I'd wish he were dead if he weren't already.
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May 19, 2013, 06:24 AM
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You might want to consider EMDR. hugs
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 Lauru
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May 20, 2013, 05:18 PM
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Carol 
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