I think I just need to rant?

Okay, so I'm 17 years old and I don't think I've been abused, just molested from my early childhood until I was 15. I'm not really messed up and I can function normally. It's just sometimes when someone walks up behind me or out of no where gives me a hug or just grab my arm, I freak out and have a panic attack. It's like...I'm terrified of someone touching me, it doesn't have to be sexual at all and I still get scared. Only a few of my friends know what happened to me, and people at school think I'm weird because I have good days but will suddenly start having bad day and shut everyone out. I've had two panic attacks at school and one major break down. But I think I'm dealing well, but my friend keeps telling me I'm not coping well because I never really dealt with the problem. It's because the person molesting me was my half brother and I have bad trust issues and I don't even trust my own family because I'm scared of being hurt like that again.

Is it normal to feel this way? Or should I seek professional help?

The way you're feeling is a normal reaction to an experience like the one you've described. I would call this abuse, but it's not for me to tell you how to define your own experience.

Panic attacks, disliking unexpected touch - these things are very normal, very common reactions. I do think you should seek professional help, because these are symptoms that you're being affected by the past and need some help and compassion to be able to heal.

I'm so sorry that you were hurt in this way.

Thank you for responding! I will look into getting another therapist, I think. I think I'll actually try to work on my problems instead of shutting her out like usual. Thank you again for giving me stuff to think about.