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As a child I was molested by a relative who was about 10 years older than me. I remember one day when I was around the age of 9 sitting in my room and suddenly coming to the realization of the unfortunate event. I cried for hours on end knowing that I had been sexually abused, that I was now part of the many statistics based on children being abused. Now at the age of 21, I am still having difficulties coming to grips about what happened when I was 5. I have always wanted to talk to a therapist and have a couple sessions to really talk about my situation but have always been so hesitant.
To this day my parents nor family have any idea; I told my boyfriend of 3 years and a close friend but as much as they are supportive, they aren't exactly experts in this field.I fear that because of that traumatic event I may be bipolar or have some type of disorder because of my past. I also seem to bottle up so many of my emotions and fail at communicating with everyone from my parents, my boyfriend and roommates/friends. I also seem to become a very emotional and angry drunk girl while highly intoxicated(not sure if that is the alcohol or my past lol). But on a more serious note, are all these related back to me being sexually abused? I would really love some advice/feedback on my problem.
Thank you

[Big Mama]

For starters sexual abuse as a child makes you more hesitant to open up, It causes you to keep things to your self and bottle them up. This kind of thing does not give you bipolar issues. That is more a brain chemical deficiency of ever production of a chemical. It could give you situation depression, or anxiety, it could give you PTSD. But all of those can be helped with counseling for sure, and medication if necessary.

You definitely need to get counseling. It will be the best thing you could have ever done for your mental health. If left untreated and neglected, it can very easily affect you later in life. Stress and sex, friendships and relationships. I waited 20+ years t talk about what happened to me. I wish I would have done it years ago.